Yes, I can relate. In my own life, I have begun the process of distancing myself from people like this. It’ll just continue hurting your heart otherwise and the relationship between you is not a reflection of health for both parties involved. As an adult, it can be hard to seek out friends again but I think it’s worth it. And pay attention to those who gravitate towards you easily and genuinely. I used to think that those who looked up to me or really liked me were not seeing the real me as I had low self-esteem. I thought something might be “wrong” with their view of the world. I’ve since changed.

Seek out those with similar values. Maybe volunteer somewhere where you will find the caring tribe you’ve always wanted. Finding one or two special friends is worth it. I know what it’s like to just vent also, and not expect any real solution. I definitely hope solutions come to mind though for you eventually.