Right now you are blaming yourself. Well I should have made our relationship official. I should have posted photos. I’m afraid she will leave because I’m not good enough. Telling yourself that you made mistakes and this anxiety is the result.

You will come to learn in time that none of it is true. It’s all simply an old habit. Something that you’ve done over and over for year’s because you had bad experiences as a child.

= Yes, i know it’s an old habit of mine, always blaming myself for my mistakes….

It’s just that i miscalculated, i thought it’s better to post our relationship on social media on an important occasion, like valentines day… I never thought she’d have a staycation before valentines day…. If i knew about it sooner, i’d have posted our relationship before she go to the staycation with her friends….. I really miscalculated…

Because i’m really grateful that i’ve met her, especially after my heartbreak with my previous crush…. That’s why im trying my best to avoid making mistakes….