Hi Tee,

Yeah they want him to stay there during the high season. But they keep changing it. Like he did the interview but they didn’t tell him he had to start work right after the interview (it was his day off after working the 6 12 hour shifts) so he had to cancel plans to see a friend. He said said he would only work 3 -4 hours when back home but he has been working 6 days a week (and studying) he sounded like he was afraid that I wouldn’t come and visit him in June, but they might only give him two days off and he don’t know exactly when. I have to put in a holiday request and also I’m worried that prices for flights are gonna get higher and higher the longer we wait. I’m afraid that this will be the end. Like apparently he liked me since he started working at the hostel (last may) but he always lets his fear of rejection stop him, had I known before we would have had more time together before this happened. But like he said we can’t change that now. He hasn’t accepted it yet but I think that he will, wrote him some things to consider in making this decision (pros of satying here and working remotely) but of course it’s intirely up to him to make this decision. He hasn’t replied to it, mean while I’m here cryin every day. I’ve been so emotionally exhausted. This is probably gonna be the third time i a bit more than a year that I am left broken hearted and have to pick up the pieces.

I have found a therapist back home (she does online sessions as well) and she works with improving romantic relastionsships, from heart ache to attachment style and all of that. I think that would be really helpful for me because this rollercoaster is too much for me.