Dear Anita,

YOu are such a very attentive person and have a very good memory. Yes, after 2 years, I have recovered from my drama. I have discovered I am too old to be prenant, that guy still in date with me, and we keep our relationship in secret in hop that a few year later my parents will accept our relationship.

I feel so ahsamed at this age(40) I still struggle with so many problem to find things that people at my age already have; but that’s the reason I find to you and Tiny Buddha.

After the storm from love drama, I now face with my long lasting problem with jobs, as I am not be pleased by my boss though I am a very effective and clever staff. In other words, she is not happy with my talents and put me in boring research position while my major in import-export. SO I have a lot of free time for many years.

To tell the truth, age is a problem that hinders me from living to what I like, to get our of the safe zone; and my parents are too old for me to go away from them to follow my dream; SO I choose to accept and try to adjust myself to fit the environment. I try many ways relating to religion: practice repent, recite mantra, become vegetarian, do charity… for the recent year, I have practice meditation; whith I learn on you tube. Right now i do have a lot of freetime and would like to come here again to see if there is any group or person to join in sharing about meditation or personal development method, as I think this is a very healthy and helpful place, espcially there is you, thank you :))

Sorry while writing this i feel my issue so small to other major problem out there like Israel- Palestine war. I think while writing out these words I have some answer to my problem

Have a good day!

Blue