Hi Anita, Helcat, or anyone else that can help.

Whilst I was healing and stuck in analysis paralysis in January about whether I reach out or not, a week before I decided to reach out I heard she was seeing someone else. This broke me completely. I continued to remain in no contact and heal. I then found out she got engaged. This once again broke me further and restarted my healing journey all over again.

I am still in no contact, and still healing. It’s been over a year since the breakup.

I am feeling 95% better and normal again, though still suffer from intrusive thoughts / memories of her on a daily basis.

Where do I go from here?

I feel shame that despite saying “I’ll get back to you”, I never got back to her, and wonder what she thinks about me. On the other hand, I also am starting to feel indifferent about the whole thing and thinking of never reaching out again.

Whilst I have deleted her from all social platforms, she still continues to follow me on instagram etc.

I am confused and stressed and anxious about what I do next. Do I block her. Do I remain indifferent and just forget about her and let her follow my instagram. Do I reach out and say “sorry i never got back to you, i was working on myself, i wish you well” to close the loop neatly and then disappear forever.

What do I do?