I talked to my parents about seeing a therapist, but my parents wants me to actually do something about my personal life before starting therapy. Im just not sure anymore about anything. I am accusing her of so many things and I am accusing myself of so many things that it is hard to see what is what. We are going on a vacation together soon and I will start from now on to do something about myself. I will see if my thoughts keep coming when im trying to get better and If they do I might just have to break up, because something is wrong and I am for some reason pointing fingers at my relationship.