The past haunts us thru our memories. Remembering and thoughts about it, bring us back to those fears. Those emotions come back to the surface again. If you make the attempt to watch your mind then you will see your emotions are very fast. Then, your thoughts will follow to support those emotions. Self observation will help you figure out how your mind works.

After you regained control over your emotions, you will find that you feel something missing. That is the constant echoing of the mind. The sinking feeling of past. Now you must take courses to change your life. YouTube has Charisma University. Learn how to be charming. Watch some of their videos. When you make people smile, laugh and feel good about themselves, they will seek you out. Then, you also need self defense courses. Go with the wife to learn to protect yourself. This is to regain the feeling of being safe in your own shoes. That is something that abuse takes away. Take it back. It all starts with you. Bring back the positive into your life. Make yourself happy.

Ok, I know it is silly advice. And, no one wants to think less of themselves by taking life courses. Trying to improve. But, for me, it is about changing focus from the past and abuse to right now.

I know I am not charming. I speak my mind. Straight forward. This is what I see. Do you know what 99% of people think right after they jump off a bridge or building. They want to stop. Change their minds. Well, you have to change your mind. Make the decision to take control.

Okay, I know I am not so smart as others nor am I so compassionate. Also, I can be quite rude. But, I don’t want to see anyone hurt themselves. Please.