Hello Anita

Thanks.

I am indeed focusing on her YES or NO, honestly, i probably wouldn’t know how to respond to her YES, if she just comes back and says so. I have been thinking if she would say YES or NO, but not what comes after, probably too beyond my ability when I was constantly fretting.

I am aware this is a two person job. I think it’s not working if it’s just me.

I mean obviously we will need to work on things. This is what we agreed to do before the break, that we take this time to take a rest, see how we can navigate the problems that we have, and then we come together to decide the next step. My constant fear has taken a toll on me, I mean I have been working very hard on my self development, which is along the path that we have discussed. But yes, I am too afraid and thus obsessed with what will happen, rather than what’s happening.

I will try to be stronger when I meet her.