Dear Omyk

I am sorry that your wife died & that you had no warning. So I guess you were unable to have the discussion with your wife about new partners should a tragedy strike.

As I deepened my spiritual life I decided to try out celibacy in my 50’s as I did not want to have casual relationships. Initialy I took a vow for one year and a few months before the year was up I reviewed whether I wanted to be in a relationship.  I realised that I was content for at least 90% of my time I could handle the short & occasional bouts of loneliness/longing.

I have good friends & family so I continued renewing my celibacy vow each year and after  5 years I decided to stay celibate for the rest of my life. My spiritual life has deepened over this time and once my family commitments are over I hope to take robes.

I wish you all the best in which ever path you choose.

Kind regards Roberta