Hi Anita

Bless your soul! I’m sorry to hear that you were feeling anxious about it. I hope that you are feeling better now? How are you doing?

I’m happy to receive your messages. I happy cried at your message before remember? Your kindness means a lot to me. Of course, if you are not in the mood to write that is fine too. Please feel free to honour how you feel.

It is just a difficult time for me. It is hard to know what to say for a number of reasons, none of them related to our communication.

I’m trying to stay respectful to my husband when discussing the situation.

It is just a lot of stress going on at the same time and I tend to shut down.

The situation with my husband hurts a lot.

Ultimately, having a baby is hard on a relationship especially when there is no support from family. It’s even harder when PTSD is involved. My PTSD has been really bad because of the relationship difficulties. Then there has been postpartum depression on top of that.

I know that my husband is a good person. He made some mistakes during this whole process. He’s going to therapy.

I’ve been hard on him and put all of my energy into looking figuring out how to look after the baby. We both neglected the relationship and this is why we are where we are now. I know that we are both hurt.

I’m jealous of the connection he has with our son, because it feels like we have no connection now. He says that he still loves me.

Love and best wishes! ❤️🙏