Hello Anita

Hope you are well 🙂

Thank you. Yes it is how she operates, the more my distance with her grows, the more I can see it. Yes that is how the pattern is, and she is not able to form a good connection with me with this operational system

One thing that is bothering me recently: I am trying to adopt and so I went to the adoption centre for a few times. I have found one that interacted with me and I wanted to adopt her.

After completing the form, a sense of anxious and fear came up, lots of worries, such as would i be able to take care of her? What if I don’t like her after say one or two years, what if my future partner does not like her? What if my parents and she needs my care at the same time?

These made me so nervous that I was sleepless last night, and thought of withdrawing the application.

This reminded me last time, like what happened when i planned for my tattoo, i emailed that person, asked about all the details and was so scared that I didn’t do it.

I started to think this may be a pattern, but I don’t know how to name this.

Any thoughts?

Take care