A couple of weeks ago, I had a medical physical that showed I am at risk for diabetes. I have made some changes in my dietary habits (albeit small) and I am drinking more water. What I know that will help me to get to where I need to be is the source of my fear: exercise. It is not the thought of exercising that gets me, it is the signing up for a gym membership (very cheap and the location is literally right down the street from where I live). Everytime I go to the website or even think about stopping to sign up, I am overtaken with anxiety. Even now as I type about it, my heart is racing. I thought the fear came from being asthmatic but I have an inhaler. I thought it was money, but the amount of money I will spend in nothing compared to the money I will have to spend if I do become a diabetic. What is wrong with me? I know this is something that is necessary for my health. The bad thing about it is I have done this before, going to a gym in the wee hours of the morning so I can start my day off right and have even traveled farther to get there. So why now is it so difficult to just go, sign up, and start again?