thanks again – it is all “understandable” but i am sick over what i did – and if it wasn’t for the last text i sent, we still might be friends – i paused before sending it and then thought – oh it is “funny” – but less than a minute a later, i was panicked over how far astray i had gone – and i see i already said that so now i am repeating myself!! – a world of hurt here for certain – part of me feels if she took our friendship more…i don’t know…deeply…she would forgive me…or at least we would have talked about it – she sent a text a few days after the text i sent saying she accepted myapology but we should not have any contact with each other – that really hurt as it drove home what i had done