Hey Leah,
It is great to see that you have admitted to being fearful, but you can take that fear and use that to your advantage. I have an anxiety disorder, so it was pretty rough when I started mma. It is tough to compete when you have a disorder like I did, but I decided to take control of my life and mind. If fighting again scares you, fight again because avoidance will affect you negatively. You have to continue to work on it, and in time it will heal. It is a process. Check out my new website, revolutionary-learn.com. I promote learning outside of the classroom and awareness for problems like this.
Hope to hear from you soon,
Knock them out !