I don’t know how to think of myself too well outside of my idea of myself as working for an idealistic type organization. For some reason, the excitement generated by thinking about certain kinds of jobs seems to focus me and I feel like I am not just applying for anything. It seems to help too since I get more interviews that way. I am not good at faking enthusiasm. But survival needs may force me to do it anyway. It’s just that you need a focus (or focuses) because there are so many options out here you can get lost.

The jobs I have done that were just for income have been pretty tedious and, recently, low paid. I was working two telemarketing jobs trying to make one income for a while. But I have also been able to pick up “paralegal” jobs in law firms because I knew how to review documents. But that market sort of died and is now taken up by Attorneys who need work

Then, there are my writing skills. I think I have pretty good ones but I have to really work on finding something that would use those skills since most of my experience is freelance writing. But that has some appeal.

My administrative skills are not that interesting for me too use but they pay well. I just don’t think this is what I am good at ultimately.

I think my intuition is telling me this. Find a way to keep a roof over my head a bit longer, keep trying to play to my natural passions by turning to ask myself what it is I need to do with my life, and try not to think about age.

Look, a passionate career or love live or deep involvement in anything (or things) meaningful is a anti-dote to feeling bad about getting old. Having passion and discipline must surely trump age anyway.

If someone said to me – ignore your age and go for it they might make me feel good. Some people think I am young when they meet me so maybe that is all that matters.