Hi, Nami. I only have time for quick reply but I just want to tell you that I have been there. Only when my ex boyfriend broke up with me did I realize so many important things about life. The most important discovery was that I relied on him to make me happy. But life doesn’t go that way and eventhough our relationship would seem perfect on the outside, not only was I not happy, I was actually terribly unhappy. It took some time for me to heal, I had many regrets, I wanted him back and I wasn’t able to imagine we would never get back. In my head, I saw him as the most perfect man after the break up and I beat myself for losing him. But now I can clearly see that he was not the love of my life, he was a “crutch” to help me realize that I have to love myself and do the things I love and not seek happiness in a relationship (I believe that people who come to our life are there to help us on our spiritual journey).

I would suggest reading articles on Tiny Buddha (they will appear at the right time just when you need them, trust me) and even if it sounds impossible, let go. If he truly is the love of your life, he will come back. Do not push it. And please, don’t be so hard on yourself, you are just human and you are worthy of love – love coming from YOURSELF and others. Forgive yourself.

Things WILL get better, that is for sure. <3