Bill,

I read both of your posts regarding your dream a while ago, but wasn’t sure what to say. I still don’t, as I don’t quite see the problem you are referring to. To me, as an outsider, it looks like you are looking at yourself and your own life and seeing something that is not pleasing to you. It also seems as if you are looking at yourself through this very narrow lens. Or a stencil. A stencil of what you think a person’s life should look like, and then you see all the places where your life does not match the stencil.

I also don’t quite understand the point of view of older people expected to be expecting less. I think it’s very common in many cultures that with age comes wisdom. A 20 year old consultant is going to have a really hard time getting his thoughts heard, as opposed to a 60 year old consultant. Perhaps it’s your own view that somehow you are less valuable as you get older? Unfortunately, people will pick up on how much you value yourself and treat you accordingly.

I’m not getting the sense of what is it that you actually want. It is as if you resent practicality and favor idealism. “Saving the environment” is really very vague and impossible to define. How do you know when you’re done? How can you achieve something that isn’t an actual tangible goal? There’s nothing wrong with not being particularly interested in preserving one specific species (as an example), but those type of goals and dreams are easier to achieve. If you just want to work on saving the environment without any specific goal, then you’ll also have to accept that it is never going to be done nor will it materialize in a way that you could say “I did that”.

Sorry if I’m completely off the mark, but like I said, I’m not quite understanding what the problem is