I feel like a lot of these experiences are relatable in one way or another to my life. Going through caustic relationships are rough, and it definitely feels like almost the death of someone whom you’ve spent your time, love and energy. I think after reading what people have posted to you thus far, Al definitely had some valuable insight into your situation (everybody has made useful points, however). You know what makes you unhappy and what you dislike, and you have the means to change most of that! I was hospitalized back in early May for a massive panic attack that left me on the floor passed out sweating, shaking, etc. This was following the end of a relationship I was in this year. My finances are shot as well, and I’m currently feeling about as alone can be while sending out countless applications over the course of the week. I smoke weed to calm my nerves, which isn’t good for me but sometimes the pain is unbearable. But I know what makes me unhappy and what makes me happy. I like playing music, writing, and blogging. That is what I’m going to do, for me, and not for the attention of others. Find comfort in what you’ve already accomplished, and for being blessed with a daughter. Regardless of any advice someone gives you, know that this too is temporary and you WILL bounce back. And when you do, don’t forget about the pain of your past situations, and use that as a guideline to make wiser relationship choices in the future. Take care!