Thank you for the response Matt, yes stress is usually what triggers these emotions in me and just makes me unbalanced in a sense. Especially being in medical school together him and I are both under enormous pressure all the time that even little things just add up and at some point causes one of us to explode. Most of my times of feeling unbalanced are related to my lack of self love. Im not sure where it came from seeing that I had a very loving family and good childhood so I have never had the lack of love from anyone but myself. I think if I can focus on myself and loving myself then I can better handle certain situations. I seem to have this habit of just getting very angry and hurt when there are other attractive women around. It isn’t all the time but I do compare myself a lot and see everyone else as perfection. And in those instances I lash out at him (I used to do this with other boyfriends as well so its not just him) and then again there is the guilt for reacting in that manner when he hasn’t done anything wrong like flirt or anything with them. I just assume the worst thinking that he would rather have that girl because in my eyes she so attractive and perfect and I don’t have the most beautiful skin, or biggest breasts , so on. Im very picky with myself which again like I said I am my own worst critic. I will look into reading those books I do tend to love books like that. Im glad that I joined this forum I already feel a new more positive mindset from all your responses. Maybe if any of you have ever dealt with any insecurities like that any advice on how you work on it daily I would glady welcome . I actually decided yesterday to do a 30 day challenge of not speaking down on anyone…like not seeing a girl and judging her or pointing out something negative in order to make myself feel better (defense mechanism I see it as). Oh and namaste Matt 🙂