Hello There 🙂
I can understand where you are coming from , for almost 2 years I have been going through this “i wanna fix myself and be the person I would admire” kind of phase and it seems to take time. The best advice I can give you is BE patient! I promise you if you keep working on yourself you will get there it just needs time ! Try fixing the habits and the little habits you do daily which will definitely speed up the change, another thing to do is to monitor your thoughts! it is easier said than done but it CAN be done! I used to give up on myself every once in a while because of the fact that I felt that I was not changing and that maybe I’m just supposed to be like this, but then I realized that since I aspire to be that person then it must be meant for me ! That must be the person I was made to be! And once I started talking to myself A LOT and monitoring everything that came into my head, everything slowly but surely started to change!
Hope I helped , feel free to ask if there is anything you would like to know or any help you need:)
Alpal