why i find things so hard, why i am unable to find myself and love myself…Why my innerself wants to remain in this situation. A situation of hoplessness, helplessness, hurt, gulit, seeking validation etc. but the sub-conscious mind wants to change. but how much strong is my desire to change myself… I know well that its me alone who can change myself and no one else can enter into my mind and do things for me.. except for god…why i seek validation.

Sorry to Matt and TR that i am unable to do meditation at my home. the environment is so….