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Sam, thank you for replying,There have been several things that have happened to me the last couple of years that I’d rather not go in to detail with, but it was traumatic to say the least. You’re exactly right, it’s cool you picked up on it, that I’ve been pressured to act older. And I have, not only because of my family situation but because I am more mature in my mind and body and such, and I feel as though I could be 18-19, and sometimes wish I was just to make me feel a little better. There’s so much I want to do, but I just don’t have the motivation to do it. But as much as I want to ask my mother for help, some kind of help, I just couldn’t do it because for one, that would involve explaining to her my exact feelings and most of that is loneliness and depression, and I know at the times that gets mentioned it makes her feel like she failed as a mother, and that is the last thing I want her to feel. But also due to our situation, we don’t exactly have the money for me to look for some kind of therapist or someone to talk to, we just don’t. That’s my only problem with being outright to her about my situation. It would stress her out, make her feel like she’s a failure as a parent, and also make her more upset because she knows we can’t afford things like that. Thank you so much for replying.