Thank you Jasmine & Inky,

Thanks so much for your advice, he is definitely rare, i guess my biggest fear revolves around being hurt and left/humiliated, and letting someone in close enough to see my ‘messyness’.
if these fears come true i guess that backs up my beliefs about myself, that im not good enough so i will be left and rejected, & it’s hard to live with/will be/is. I definately understand, each time i think of giving up because it seems impossible i think to myself well when im a going to deal with all of this then? I may aswell deal now.. Was seeing a therapist am waiting to begin again in relation to anxiety, it has always been helpfull.. i guess this is all just a little frustrating but thats life i guess 🙂 i have definately felt like i have been running away from myself, thank you so much once again,
kirsty x