hello rose,
your feelings are so okay,and expected.
This guy definitely can’t give you emotional secure.
What i understood about you,is that you’re insecure with yourself and it’s expected too , because you’re young and you don’t know yourself yet. You’ll have this ability when you’ll grow up ,(x) years later.
I think that we choose the person we would like to be with, by the image we have for ourselves.
For example,if you’re insecure you will not attract a person that believes in himself because you’ll be afraid of that strange emotion,which you don’t have ( and it’s okay because you will have confidence/ self secure when you learn yourself ).
So, you must give a little bit more of care to yourself, build your self confidence, accept yourself a you can, and change what you don’t really like.
Then, you will be able to avoid someone like him.
Someone who has suicidal history in his family, who has depression etc or bipolar disorder.
The emotions which will brings out, will be -avoid that person who can’t help himself so neither my life.
I’ve passed sth like this,and it’s painful, but when you’ll find that you are valuable and respectable, non of these people can enter your life and destroy your emotions. Don’t let them be in your life. Try to search amongst the best.
Take care, 🙂 🙂