There is a blockage either with in your ego or within your spirit. If it be ego let it go and be at peace with whatever it is that your ego is hurt over. If it is spiritual then follow what is calling you, you can find a way to balance the both it is within all of us. Someone said that it is all just carrying buckets of water, but really we traded in one means (hunting and gathering) for another (working for money) when thinking about our lives from a Buddhist perspective it can be hard to swallow working a 9 to 5.