I don’t really know what I am asking. Maybe for insight. I cannot persuade anyone to do anything until they are ready to. I understand that most of all. But what he doesn’t understand is that I cannot accept him for who he is in this manner. If he wants understanding and acceptance, he is going to have to take that leap. That is the only way. Otherwise, he will push me away and let me tell you the one thing I know the most about myself. I put everything into relationships, but if you keep pushing me away, one day I will be gone for good and I won’t come back. Ever. Despite his mental condition, he is smart enough to know what he really wants and just how to get it. He is smart enough to know me. I know that I could be very empowered by this man’s presence in my life. But unfortunately, not in his way. He knows that too.

Love is easy. You meet and you know. The connect is immediately there. You don’t need to define or control it. Sometimes it can be hidden if you meet the person at the wrong place or wrong time. But once both parties know, it’s easy. So why does he make it so hard?

Love makes you better. You both want to be better for that person. You both can communicate it easily and you both take the other seriously. It is not a fantasy. It is not a role or character you play. It is most definitely not a game of any sort. Most certainly not a mind fuck. And it is entirely experienced through the energy of simply being right next to that person. That is how you know.

How can I answer anything, without being given the one thing I need to know?