also yoyo, I’m probably just reading my stuff into it, but worry more about how you feel, and why you do what you do
He could be using emotional upset to control you without even knowing he’s doing it.
I’m not criticizing just step back and say, Do I want to see that person? Do I feel okay with the way that interaction went?
Do I feel safe/loved/nourished in this relationship? If not, then take some space for you. Good luck.

“When you give another person the power to define you, then you also give them the power to control you.”
― Leslie Vernick, The Emotionally Destructive Relationship: Seeing It, Stopping It, Surviving It