Thank you Niko for your kind words. I have actually read a lot of good things in your message, which resonate with my head and heart. It is not easy, it is such a difficult moment. In the last months I really got close to the guy and bonded, we were very much ostracized by friends and almost got to live everything together, we came to coexist. I really miss him, and I know I will. But I also realise how bad and unfair was his treatment in my regards at the end. So I feel pulled by forgiveness/loss feeling and anger that clash inside me. I know the best for now is to just keep distant and heal. I don’t want to be friends with him, even though I know I will miss his presence in my life.

Ashley, thanks for the advice. I am actually working to get a new job, which hopefully would also make me go away for a while allowing me to make new experiences and make new friends. I know I am strong, I just need to find myself again I guess.

I really appreciate your answers.

Elena