Dear Anita
Thank you very much for your your informative post. Most of your experiences are mine and i appreciate you a lot the way you deal with your pain and also being here offering a helping hand. I should tell you that my mother was comparatively better than my father. All the frustration she had on me was only her way of expressing her own fear to someone less defensive. But my father is someone you can call as a pure devil. He made sure that i suffer, sometimes acting through mom or else directly. My relationship with mother has improved after i grew up but with father it went down the toilet. He spit venom on me and loath me to eternity from the time i can remember. He always leave a trail of havoc in my way whenever i try to escape from him. The fact that he is abusing me even now (He beat me to near death last week after i questioned him for calling me a foul word and i had to call police) because he know that i have nowhere to go. My question to you, Did changing the environment worked for you? Like moving away from the people who cause you trouble. I know healing is not easy and it takes a long time. But am desperate to make some changes. I have so much anger in me… I’m sorry but i feel to tear father into pieces. I am unable to control my mind/thoughts and it is like every cell in my body is on fire.