Do you risk assess things by any chance?!
The problem I always found with being lonely is that I coulda made more effort to not be lonely in some way, but I actually didn’t, I just felt like I was the only person in the entire world.. And now at 26, I get to certain points to where I actually want to be by myself, it’s almost comfortable l, I find comfort in that as otherwise with risk assessing people and situations I work out that sooner or later all those people will probably want a different life anyway.. Never ready, never happy , always finding problems that you can’t resolve. It is you! Lol is it a bad thing? Ermmmm could be, can you fix it sure why not.. You may have just not met the right one!
Or maybe you have commitment issues
… But I generally find the past
is a big teller.. I’m never really
happy.. Sorta always still searching for something I don’t know, but I can mentally always get further alone.