Dear Jim/Jamie:
I am touched by you sharing your dream with me, that I may have triggered or encouraged you to share this dream. Although there is much panic in the dream, it expresses your innermost desire, as I see it, the desire to be seen as you are, no longer hiding from that inner voice saying to yourself: you are shameful! Hide! Oh that voice… matched in reality by the people that would indeed look and point and laugh because of your behavior breaking the social conditioning, the social agreement of sorts of what should be.

I remember right now my mother saying about a woman, she said that about that woman only a few years ago, she said: “She is everything (a woman) should be.” I remember that particular woman she was talking about from many years before. I remember that woman being in a house with her son, a 13 year old son. His name was Harley. Everyone left the house and stood outside to allow that woman, Harley’s mother, the privacy everyone, every adult anyway, thought she deserved or should have. Alone with Harley, she was. Outside I stood with the others and heard loud noises. I don’t know what she beat him with but it made a lot of noise, sharp, hard noise, over and over again, something hitting his body very, very hard. ANd i heard him screaming like he was killed.

I have to go now for a walk… finish the point: that woman may have been well mannered, eat nicely, say the right things….

You get my point. what people say should be. Write me again, or I will continue later, amybe tomorrow, come back to this.
anita