Hi everyone,

This is my first time here. My ex and I were together for almost 2 years. I have two kids from a seperate girl. The kids love her and she does too. They have so much fun. Two weeks ago she broke up with me. During our relationship she she was always worried that i would cheat on her. She would always check my phone, my emails and also my history to see what sites i have been on. She was always stressed and wouldnt like it if i went out with my friends. She was always worried. And when we would go out, she would always check on my to see if I am staring at girls. Even my friends noticed it often. She was always worried that my ex would try to get back with me because she says that my ex was so hot. I reassured her that there is nothing and she moved on and have kids now. Why would you even worry. Anyways my ex would always feel that my friends girlfriends would try to steal me away from her. Thats ridiculous. She then wanted a break a year into our relationship because she was so stressed and you can see it too. So we went on a break and then within 2 weeks, she came back to me crying and said that she wants me back and she said that she slept with a guy once and she wanted to kill herself for that. I took her back because i loved her. I know what you guys are thinking, what the heck are you doing? haha. Ok well we continued our relationship and she still has the same issue about the insecurity and jealousy. She keeps saying that I deserve someone better. She still doesnt trust me. Yes my friends send pics of hot bikini models to our group chats that we are on every once awhile but i show her and delete them right after. We argue all the time and its always about the jealousy and insecurity issues. I even talked to her to see how i can help and she said to be more affectionate. So i did that she is liked it but it wasnt enough. She is still worried and stressed. One time a girl liked my facebook photo i put up and she asked who that was and if i like her and maybe she likes me. OMG. We fought again. Sometimes she feels that she needs more attention than my kids when they are here with me on the weekends. I have a photo of the kids together with their mom and she asked why is their mom in the picture? I said, well its because its their mom. She would accuse me of looking at girls or cheating non stop. I get so mad and i know i shouldnt be. We cant even watch a movie that has sex scenes or a hot girl without her asking me if i like that or if she is pretty. I think the issue stems from the fact that her last two ex bf cheated on her. I have never cheated on her at all.

Ok so she broke up and its been two weeks and she didnt want me to text her. so i didnt. i changed my profile photo and she saw, and right away asked who i was with and where i went then she called. She then blocked on this messaging app called whatsapp then a day later she unblocks me. She is being tough outside and stubborn but i know she misses me. I gave her roses when i went to drop off her things and told her that i wanna help her fix these issues together and that i still love her and care for her and will do whatever it takes to make her trust me more and more. She didnt want the rose and said she cant go back. She really cant. That night we talked and we made out and she wanted to sleep with me but we couldnt because it was that time of the month. so the following day she calls and wanted me to come over so i asked do you want me to come and she said i dont know…no i dont want you to. She did that again the following day and then when i dont text her, she says thanks for texting me. Couple days later she acts like she wants to move on and i tell her that i miss her and want her back but she said no im not going back. \so i told her i will move on and will not text her. the following day or two she texted me again and asked if i miss her still. She is confused. Now she blocked me again. She is back and forth and she is young too, she is only 23 and im in my 32.

So my question is, i do want her back but should i try to even go back or just let her go and move on with my life cause im hurting too?