Hello Brian – thank you for your detailed explanation. I apologize for jumping to conclusions too soon, and I did wonder about that even as I was writing my earlier response. It’s always sad when I hear that someone didn’t have a happy childhood, or at least escapes as a child when you could get lost in time. Instead you’re talking about your childhood as “hell every single day” – I can’t even imagine the emotional wounds from a time like that. I have to admire you for being able to live somewhat of a normal life now, trying to overcome a dependence on alcohol, and trying to make social connections – when I suggested things to do on your own, I didn’t really mean more video games alone, but things like visiting social places like bookshops or museums or even volunteering activities where you can make meaningful connections, rather than reaching out to “friends” who may or may not be supporting you. I’m happy to hear that you do enjoy social situations – that they’re not an escape from yourself, but something that you thrive on.

I agree though, the Cameron Frye revelation you had was a powerful one, and I think if you allow it, you could open yourself to seeing what that may come to mean in the next few weeks / months. Revelations seem to work that way for me – in spurts. You maybe onto something 🙂