Thank you everyone for your support and insight, it’s been a tough month for me, I’ve also been on antidepressants which I don’t know if it’s such a good idea as I’m scared that it’s just blocking other emotions that I should be facing. In the times that we have sat down and spoken he says that it’s him and he isn’t ready to make a commitment, we’re both in our early 30’s but I am a few years older than him and I don’t know if he’s putting pressure on himself because of this. He also said that he needs to see the girl in me that he first fell in love with, I know we became comfortable with each other and I probably took it for granted that he would just be there. I have begged him to give “us” another chance but he is determined that he needs time. I’m afraid that after this “time” that he will just let me down. I think that if he didn’t love me at all he would have just walked away, but I don’t know if this time thing is any easier. I still have some of his belongings at my house but he told me that he’s not taking it now. This is confusing me so much because I feel rejected but. My last long term relationship ended with my ex cheating on me after 5 years together, he also just suddenly broke up with me before I found out but I found out very quickly because she fell pregnant and they got married almost immediately, just as my relationship ended with him. That was my first experience of heart break and I still had to see him daily as I worked with him. It came back to him this past year and he is now divorced because the woman he left me for cheated on him! That first heart break took me a while to recover from, I also set my standards high and didn’t just settle for anyone until my recent ex came along, it took a lot for me to be able to open my heart to love again and this is what happened. I will take some of your advice, I will make my list. I have also been through the stages of not eating, not sleeping, not wanting to get out of bed, at least those symptoms seem to be fading a bit now. I agree that he probably had been thinking about this for a while and that is why he was more ready to face it than being the one receiving the news.