Nekoshema, thank you for your answer. As for me when I get anxiety attacks, I let it get to me and for an hour or two and let myself almost drown in the emotions until they leave my body. I shall try and breathe through it the next time, thanks for your advice. I used to keep a journal before but I haven’t written in a long time and thinking about it know, I remember that I used to really enjoy it. I used to write two things I was grateful for every day when I was deep in my depression, just to try to feel happy about something and it actually worked after a while. I will start writing again.

I too was very angry with my ex for a long time, blaming him for everything I felt. I wanted to “get back at him” and such but now after all is said and done all I am left with are the same emotions for myself and no emotions left for him so I understand the problem is within me and was never with him.

Thanks for your tips, it gets me thinking!