Hi everyone, thanks so much for your advice!
I made a BIG decision today and am so proud of myself, that I have to share.
I FINALLY kicked my roommate out of my apartment (as I hold the lease and have the power). This person was making me so upset and irritated living in my own home, no peace at all, that I was actually considering MOVING out and running away from life.

Instead of pulling my boyfriend into my mess, and forcing us to move in together in order to hope for a better living situation, I set him aside and focused on my own health and decisions, independently of him. And IM SO HAPPY.
Now, I can find a new roommate, someone much more mindful, and I dont have to move away, or ruin my relationship with my boyfriend. And we can have more time to consider moving in together and work on our relationship with ourselves and eachother.
It was such a hard thing for me to do, as it involves so much confrontation and conflict and honesty. But in the end, I feel elated, and my now ex-roommate actually feels excited to move in with people he meshes better with. Win-win!

So now, after all of this, I can finally see clearly about how I feel living here. Was it just the terrible living situation causing me to long for home? Or do I really not like the area up here? I feel that this new living situation will inspire a completely new outlook and perspective on life here, and I can’t wait for my new peaceful space! I think everything in my life will only get better now that my own home is a pleasant space to be in.