Hi i am new to this site and i love the support and advice you guys offer. I am having issues with letting go of hurt of past things said and done to me and it’s gotten to the point where i feel dry and sort of in a dark cloud, i have been with my boyfriend for a couple of years now we have kids together and he has some of his own from previous relationships, when we met everything was great we would talk constantly and couldn’t stand being apart the first hurt came when we got in to an argument over me talking to some friends thru facebook guy friends that i had know way before him and not as intimate relationships just friends well he took it the wrong way and believed i had been involved with them and that i was talking to the behind his back after arguing he said to me that he wanted to go back with his ex and that his ex was way better than me,(Sex wise) and i had probably been with so many guys and probably being over used blah blah childish things but cut me like knives, after he cooled off he said he was sorry and me still hurt i decided to stay and bottled my anger still over that and in a way i guessed it hurt worst since they have kids together, than i got pregnant with our child when we met i was still legally married to someone else but i had started the process of my divorce my than husband had left and no where to be found 5 months in to my pregnancy he re appeared looking for me and to get back together but i was with my boyfriend now and i consider my self happy well thru Facebook my ex husband found me and wanted to settle thing i couldn’t tell my boyfriend i had talk to him thru facebook since i know how jelous he gets and he wouldn’t understand the fact that me and my ex had lifes together before we met and needed to finish things up like the divorce we had been separated 2 years before i even met my boyfriend so it was even absurd to me having to hide since i was comfortable with him going to his exes house to get his kids and all that well one night he went thru my Facebook and found the messages he than said my child could never be his since he didn’t have kids with liars this was my first child and i felt so let down to hear something like that come out of his mouth i was angry, than betwen than and now some fights got physical and i know i should of left but i didn’t so i feel so disrespected and betrayed,his ex than decides she is tired of being a mother and leaves their kids behind now they come live with us and of course here i am pregnant after hearing my son is nothing and i see those kids do matter to him and i guess my anger made me associate the first argument to the next and build anger, he than again he was sorry and we went on my son was born and i was bitter what he had said about him than. Decided to work thru things and i still love him he always criticized me for lieing and every argument that would be his first thing the liar and maybe you are cheating blah blah when my son turned one i found out he had been lieing to me and had got addicted to some drugs asked me for forgiveness and said he will get better he relapsed 3 times and lied about every single time until finally he got the help he needed and turned his life but now i feel like i don’t have the will to stay and i think about all the hurt he has caused me and how now he says everything is better and will be better but i feel like i nevered made him feel the way i did and now he expects me to let go of all this hurt and live life because he is better! Please any advice will be greatly appreciated!!