@Icy

I can completely relate to you, and while my heart breaks for what you’re going through, it’s nice to know I’m not alone. The beauty of your post is this: you have an incredibly supportive and loving partner. These are the people we need in our lives.

I cant tell you I have it figured out, but with a partner like the one you have found, I feel hopeful. I feel hopeful that people like me and you can find others to love us and be there and not leave, for that is a big fear of mine too.

I think you’ve made huge steps in recognizing your thought patterns. It’s HUGE that you are realizing the things that you are prone to, and the things that make you nervous. It’s HUGE that you’re starting to see where some of this began in your part.

All I can tell you is this: Stop being so hard on yourself. You’re making massive progress every day. Love yourself. You are a wonderful person, as proof by the wonderful man who made the very intelligent decision to be your life partner 🙂

Your post has helped me as well. Thank you for sharing.