Dear Michael and Anita,

Anita thank you very much for your reply and understanding, it means a lot to me.
Funny thing is I used to (partly) own a dog called Flip, with my ex girlfriend, and there was much love between us.
It’s true what you say, some sincerity in people’s intent is very important in this part of my life.
I mean to regain this in the future, your kind words and understanding have contributed in a very
meaningful way to me. Thanks for taking the time to reply.

Michael, I’ve read your wise words quite a few times. They are truly words of wisdom. They ring very true to what I’m experiencing. Without sounding melodramatic, its like you looked into my soul. You described something I “know” but can’t seem to experience in most moments of the day.

Creating transience is a term I haven’t heard of before, but will inform myself further in.
Either way it is true. I am truly afraid of losing even more by experiencing love unconditionally. Fear of giving yourself fully to love, then regretting that attitude when it causes the ego pain. Like saying “I wish I wouldn’t have allowed myself to be hurt in this way”. It really is my true intent to love. As you described not just within an interaction or relationship, but also in a wider sense. I already let people in front when they have fewer groceries, let pedestrians pass when I’m driving, smile and greet people that have an open attitude towards me. I do wish everyone peace and a life without suffering, even if I have never met them. I wish to develop this further. The next step is to overcome fear, “if people know me long enough they will not like me” or “If i am loving to people they will exploit me”, because it is shaping any experience I might have. And you are right, in the end its just a concept and a projection that “adults” are hard to love.

Off-course I’ll follow your guidance and keep meditating. I also find it amazing that you mention parks, since I’m in the park every single day, to love all that is around us. Today it did carry over into wider perspective, outside of the park or places I feel comfortable. I will meditate and keep in mind my true intent as much as possible. There is duality between the true nature of being, and how I perceive it now. Despite the potential for the same wisdom you already posses, being withing me as well (despite being well hidden 😉 ), I still would like to thank you very much for taking the time and describing it to me in such a way that it resonated with me deeply.

Even though you are right, that the validation for these things, I should find within myself, It’s still very important to me that you described it the way you did. I will work hard to achieve the same mastery you have over the experiences life gives us. Accepting any ups and downs that may bring and expressing myself fully, thus living fully.

I hope it’s alright if I update this topic in a few weeks/months to let you know how its going.

Thank you,

Leke