No, I’ve never felt the need, or tried this hard to get away from someone. That said, I’ve never felt/been this trapped either. When I said earlier that I felt shackled to this person, I wasn’t exaggerating.

I think that if there were to be no legal repercussions, I would absolutely keep my child from him in a heartbeat. The fact is, if I do that I could lose my child. Any control I have over their wellbeing would be taken out of my hands and placed in the hands of someone who doesn’t know me, doesnt know him, doesn’t know my child, and doesn’t fully know the situation – the court system. I don’t know for sure if he would take me to court over it, but I do know that I simply cannot take that risk. I’m damned if I do, damned if I don’t and THAT is the hardest thing to accept. I’m constantly looking for loopholes or at least some sort of way out, and I HATE that I have to do this all because of his actions. I take responsibility for my part in bringing my child into the world with a worthless man, but I cannot control his side of the situation.