Anita, it feels really good talking to you. Thank you!
I feel somewhat guilty for the fact that I need attention… See, what’s going on here are my issues as a child with my mom that came out with all the divorce process. Not only she would put me down, but also she would not give me enough attention as a child… Even my dad recognizes it. I feel guilty if I make anyone feel worried. I have already been sick in November (stayed a few days in the hospital) and my mom could only blame me for that instead of some compassion. No one stayed with me in the hospital, except during nights.. and I thought I should just understand that people are busy instead of actually asking anyone to stay with me.
So yes– at this point I definitely need attention. my inner child is crying inside.