@Matty

Thank you for your reply. I think you’re right, especially now that I’ve actually come back, I just feel kinda stuck. My parents go into their natural stance and treat me like a kid again (which is expected, I guess) but there’s also that element of feeling like they’re trying to fix me. I mean, I only got back a few hours ago (Wed evening here) but they’ve already long before made plans for me to see a neurologist tomorrow (for migraines that I have been having) and a counsellor on friday (even though I already have a regular counsellor back in the UK). But yeah, I think I do feel like my life is different now, I myself feel different now, and yet coming back here creates some rift in my mind that makes me feel how I was before I moved away 6 years ago and that rift creates a lot of internal conflict. I remember the last time I was back in Singapore a year and a half ago, I stayed so attached to the UK that I just still lived in London time but in Singapore. I wouldn’t be able to sleep all night, would Skype friends from back in the UK while everyone here was fast asleep, and that probably made me experience here feel even worse and more detached.

I will keep working on that goal as I know it is what I want, I definitely do not feel comfortable moving back here, as much as my parents hope/want me to. Thanks for your kind words!