Dear H1978:

I read your latest post and re-read your original post here. You wrote that you are unhappy and lost. A sentence that you wrote giving a clue as to why is: “I hate the daily grind of a corporate job, lack of freedom etc and having to conform to something I am not!”

I think you need and yearn to be a leader in your own life, to make things happen, to create, to be the Creator of your own life!

And it needs to be so for you in your marriage and outside your marriage. You not submitting to others’ rules and feelings but asserting your own.

I am suspicious about the improvement in your marriage, hoping it is valid, that is that you are indeed assertive in your marriage and not walking on egg shells so to keep the marriage “on track.”

I also support your decision to not have children at this point, if at all, in this state of mind. Because children require you acting comfortably and … happily in the role of a mother. This is a lot of work that unless you are ready for it, will be more “grind” that you don’t want more of!

If I am correct here, please let me know, correct me where I am not correct, and we can communicate further…?

anita