Thank you Anita for your response.

I found it interesting what you said – just to clarify: That I think that I have a good loving relationship with my family members but I don’t?

And yes – that is probably a better way of going forward. I think if I wasn’t so scared over finding a new place to stay and where to stay, education and so on, that I all put on hold. I am confused over staying closer to my family as I do not know if that closeness would be a good impact on me. Maybe it would.

What I do know is little but I know that I am pretty happy by myself. It’s the silence. And no need to be anything.
I know I do not care for superficial things and value real love. But as you say I may not know what this is.
I guess I think I do.

I would like to feel independant and strong by myself. Not having to need anyone else.

I guess that’s how far my list goes. It’s not a long list at all.

I just wish I spent less time on relationships and more time on me and my future.

Best wishes,

Ann