Finding Happiness Without Needing Success and Validation

Smiling Man

“The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others.”~ Sonya Friedman

Five years ago I was driven, determined, and thriving. I was in the middle of a career in financial services that had started in sales, led to management, and, at that point, had me pushing myself and competing as a director in the retail banking business.

I was proud of what I had achieved and what I intended to achieve. I had the trappings of success as I saw them—the house, the car, the salary, and job title that reflected my level of achievement—and I had a huge and very sensitive ego to accompany all of this.

When I refer to my ego, I really mean that my self-esteem was dependent upon my accomplishments. I perceived that the external and visual signs of success were directly linked to the person I was inside.

Then, one day, I heard voice saying, “You must leave, you have to get out of this place…”

Before you imagine that I was hearing things, I’ll add that this was my boss. He was telling me that the company was in a “change process” and I was one of the casualties. At that moment I saw my career leave the room, out the window, with my self-esteem jumping after it.

Over the weeks that followed, my family and friends, seeing my distress, sought to comfort me with words similar to “Don’t worry, we still love you whether you are refuse collector or a chief executive.”

While I smiled at these words, my internal dialogue was something different. It went something like: “It doesn’t matter what you think of me. I won’t love myself unless I show how successful I can be.”

At that time I did not know how true that statement was. I also did not realize that this was both my greatest motivator and, at the same time, the greatest barrier to long-term happiness.

My Awakening

Over the years I had been interested in my personal development and had read quite widely. I often came across the concept of loving myself and dismissed it as fluffy, ephemeral, and completely non-masculine.

Then I started to read about my emotional needs, the needs that I expect the rest of the world to meet in order for me to be happy, such as my need to be loved, respected, validated, and listened to.

As I reflected, I realized that I used a lot of “needy” behavior in order to manipulate the environment to meet my needs. I would act the victim and the martyr on social media in order to get sympathy and attention. I would over assert myself (aggressively) in order to be respected.

I would outperform other directors in order to get the validation and appreciation from my boss and peers that I desperately needed. I would tell my wife I love her in order to get the response “I love you, too.”

I had been relying on everyone else and making it their responsibility to make me happy. If they responded to my hints and nudges, then I was happy and they topped up my self-esteem.

“What’s the problem?” I hear you ask. “People meet your needs, you feel good, problem solved.”

Here’s the issue: unhealthy self-esteem is like a monster that grows the more you feed it.

A four-bedroom detached house with a double garage, once achieved, becomes too small, and you need a five-bed with a pool. Job title inflation becomes the norm, and you must upgrade the ultimate status symbol, the car, as often as possible.

Soon, I get to the point where telling me you love me is not enough. You have to prove it, and guess what? The more you prove it, the more you have to. Every effort, thought, and gift has to be better than the last one; otherwise, you obviously don’t care.

Those of you imagining this is a caricature, please examine your own behavior. What little tactics and strategies do you use to get the attention you crave? How do you manipulate your environment to get your needs met?

So what changed for me?

I slowly started to take responsibility for my happiness and meeting my own needs. I started to like myself and moved on to respecting myself, and I eventually lost my reliance upon others for validation.

As I started this slow transformation, a funny conundrum revealed itself to me. When I used to demand respect, validation, and love, I never got enough of them. As I started to respect myself, I found others respected me more, and now I have an abundance of respect, love, and validation.

Does that sound smug?

I hope not. By taking responsibility for my needs, I am now able to have healthy, giving relationships that are not based upon giving in order to receive. By having a healthy relationship with myself, I have healthy relationships with others.

Start with You

It started for me with a seismic shock wave that rocked my world. It does not have to happen like that.

Start by raising your awareness.

Observe the needy, manipulative behaviors in others; it’s easier that way. Then start to notice them in yourself and identify what need you’re trying to get others to meet for you.

From there, ask yourself: What does it really mean to like and respect myself?

For me, this means that I make myself a priority, give myself the time I need for my interests, and set clear boundaries around my work and life.

Next, close your eyes and ask yourself: How would that look? How would that feel? What would I see myself doing and hear myself saying?

I can see myself setting clear space in my diary and feeling in control, and taking clear steps to make space for family time. I can hear myself saying, “Thanks for the offer, but I have other commitments that day. I can offer you two other alternatives.”

Finally, ask yourself: What small steps could I take now to start this process?

My first small step was to set time aside to make sure I was not overcommitted and my time was protected.

I started this post by sharing that I was successful. This may imply that I no longer am.

My measurements of success may have changed a little, but I am comfortable with that.

I am not worried about job titles, and I prefer to measure success by the impact my work has. I drive a twelve-year-old car because I like it. When I tell my wife I love her, it’s because I do and she deserves to hear that.

In case you are reading this and wondering if meeting my own needs makes me less ambitious, absolutely not. I have great ambitions and plans.

Whether those ambitions and plans are successful or not will not be a factor in my happiness. To put it another way, I am happy and will be so whether or not I realize my plans and aspirations.

Photo by skedonk

About Julian Hall

Julian Hall is founder and director of Calm People who are experts in emotional resilience dealing with stress, conflict and anger management. They help individuals, groups and organisations take responsibility and deal with the challenges that face anyone living in an ever changing and crowded world.

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  • Love how you focus on personalizing it- real happiness can’t come from any external validation, it must come from within!

  • Thats a common mistake we all do. Living our life on standards set by others or so called society, which may or may not be right. Happiness is like a lock which opens with a different key every time. you have to find your own key and avoid using others key’s.

  • I have definitely fallen victim to this mode of thinking. I’ve always thought that a house, car, and job title, etc somehow would tell the world that I have value. I now realize that the way I spend my time and the way I cultivate my relationships matters much more. What this article promotes is just as important though; and that’s the importance of cultivating a healthy relationship with yourself. Self-love sounds fluffy but it is in fact a solid basis to live well.

  • DE

    Julian- well written, after a life changing events a year ago, I started the practice of self love. When I say the word ” Self love”, most of people think, I am selfish. But I realized that if I love myself and be happy, then people around me would be happy. It is difficult to avoid the others assessment about us in this materialist world, but if we could avoid them and live in the moment, we will be happy.

  • Julian Hall

    Great stuff De….Yes I get that reaction. People think that by meeting our own needs we will become arrogant. It’s the opposite and leads to healthier relationships

  • T

    I am learning to be more conscious. Without this knowledge being presented it is so easy to be in that state. Neither my parents, social group or education ever touched on these important topics. Its fantastic the internet can now share this information. I grew up in an ok household but I am now realizing that though there was no abuse I felt invisible which translated into me feeling like I’m nothing, I don’t matter, I’m not good enough. I still carry that around with me everywhere. I now realize its why I would drink too much (numb that feeling away). Thanks Tiny Buddha, you are my free therapist 🙂

  • Guest

    Great post. Thanks. But don’t let that compliment raise your self esteem. 😀 haha.

  • LL

    Very nice post – thank you Julian.

  • Makayla

    I feel like this was wrote for me.. haha. 🙂 I recently realized when writing in my journal that my happiness depends on how ‘hard’ I work or how much I achieve.. If not success, not worthy, is how that would go. Although no one praises me for me achievements, that’s what I have been seeking. It’s a tough habit to break, especially when you didn’t realize that is what you have been wanting all along. I’m hoping I can change my thought pattern and start being happy, whether I ‘deserve’ it or not.

  • Ryan

    Thank you for writing this Julian!

  • Hi Julian!!

    I’m happy you’re on the self-love journey 🙂

    I am too. It’s a long process.
    I realized when we don’t know ourselves, we tend to look outside for validation, depending on others to make us feel good. But when we take the time to care and respect ourselves, we define our own happiness because we finally see our own worth.

    Thank you so much for sharing this inspiring article 🙂

  • Lotus Happiness

    Happiness is the inner peace and it all comes from within. 🙂

  • lv2terp

    This is a wonderful post, with awesome insight! It was like reading about me, thank you for sharing your experience! I like how you said the “unhealthy self-esteem” because I always grew up thinking my self esteem was high, then realized a few yrs ago that it actually sucked! What a shock! And that unhealthy kind was a monster, and really became a beast, and what kept me on a roller coaster of emotions. I appreciated reading this! 🙂 Now is a much better place, cheers to you, and congratulations for making it here. It was a long tough road for me as I am sure it was for you, and still getting better and better which is exciting! 🙂 hugs

  • Julian Hall

    Welcome 🙂

  • Julian Hall

    Thank you for your appreciations. Great to read your comment

  • What a brilliant post! Several years back I was diagnosed with arthritis/lupus struggled with letting go of my self-esteem and totally kept going full steam ahead with building my singing/performers career. I took practically any gig that was offered me, allowed others to mentally step all over me. Then bingo; it hit me, I couldn’t walk to the stage, hold the mic due to swollen hands and when I did perform; it took weeks to recover. I asked myself what is it all for? Why was I burning myself out? My profession became a true obsession; I started to de-value myself too. I was compensating for my disability. Lightbulb moment! After the revelation; I calmed down and asked, is being competitive worth sacrificing my health. NO! Now I have labled myself an Exclusive singer and will only take options that benefit me, my mind, spiirt and body!

  • Ace I

    I don’t know what my needs are…

  • Julian Hall

    Great learning. Thank you

  • cfb

    Great post! Thank you so much for this!

  • Craig

    Great post! Very relevant to my life. I grew up on a steady diet of accomplishments and praise fuelling my self-worth and self-confidence. When these external validators stopped coming in I really struggled, I felt a huge amount of shame and felt like a failure because I wasn’t living up to my expectations of who I think I was meant to be. But slowly I have begun the journey of loving myself and making decisions based off what I want, not what I think I should do to be happy and ‘successful’. Its obviously a process, and somedays I am filled with doubt and am ready to jump straight back to performing/perfecting/pleasing for my self-worth, but posts and discussions like this help me to cultivate trust in myself and realise that I am not alone.