Kim,

If I can only stop myself from crying while reading your post. I related to you more than I ever related to anyone around me. In this life, I’ve been always asked to be someone’s friend and they would always use me as a tool to get to what they wanted from me as a friend and a loving individual. Caring for what they wanted and not really giving myself anytime to seek new friends and discover the possibilities that could come from it, I saw everyone of them betray me the second I left the scene.

My family is very loving just like yours; giving me every bit of love and encouraging me to do what I want. However, I’ve never learned how to convey emotions of love and always assumed that the other person will just get it. This way of thinking ended with me always being lonely, which is fine if you truly value yourself.

Your story inspires me to seek out love in a deferent route and give love back unconditionally. You made me notice this mental block that I seem to have as well. Exactly as you put it, it is as if I don’t know what it is. Thank you!