Panda,
Thank you so much for taking the time to type this out. It hasn’t even been 24 hours, and I know I have a long road ahead of feeling crappy. I know in my heart things weren’t ideal, but I’m struggling with anger, both at myself for not just accepting he was enough, and at him for not giving me what I deserved. I keep trying to make excuses for him because I cared so much for him. I’m questioning this decision and I miss him so much already, even though I know I wasn’t in an ideal relationship. It’s so difficult to cope when my brain is running a million miles per hour – I can’t seem to take a mental break and just breathe. I know I will be okay, but right now, it’s difficult to see the light at the end of the tunnel because it’s so recent.
It’s nice to hear from someone who understands the stresses of professional school, which definitely makes coping with this breakup much more difficult. Thank you for your kind advice. <3