dear anita,

I’m having CBT therapy on Friday, but I’m really confused as my anxiety just disappeared overnight, I still feel the same thoughts but it started making me feel like I wanted to be and wanted a girlfriend and I was so stressed about it, but then my anxiety just disappeared and now I’m thinking I want to be without the anxiety?! Hopefully this therapy will help..

dear Anita,

My therapist specialises in EMDR, would he also be specialised in dealing with OCD?? I’ve got another appointment to see him but I didn’t know that they specialised in OCD too!!

dear anita,

I definitely will because I know it’s not just me who struggles with this. I actually came across a site with other individuals who suffered with HOCD, and their story was almost exactly like mine!! I was shocked how many other people suffered with it as I never heard of it before. I can’t thank you enough for your help though and for putting my mind at ease until I got help professionally.

alesha

dear Anita,

Ive not got an appointment with my therapist for tomorrow, as the doctors think it is OCD and therapy is the best way to relieve it, I feel better now I’m going to get help because I know I made it an obsession for myself, and I also know it is OCD as it runs through my family and before this I had OCD and I still do, where I have to count what I do and do things in a certain order, thankyou so much for your time!!! Looking forward to my road to recovery

alesha

Hi Anita,

I wasn’t going to talk about that much. I started my period again on Thursday and ever since then my anxiety has gotten so much worse, I worry about the littlest things and I started worrying about stuff like, what if I die in my sleep and things like that, I don’t know if it’s natural for things like that to happen as I’m suffering bad once again with my period, or if it’s part of OCD…

alesha

I will definitely do this. I think I’m going to book an appointment and talk with my therapist and see if there’s anything he can do, I’m going to start with the mindfulness exercises he gave me and do the things you told me to do! I appreciate your time:) thankyou! Have a good day:)

Dear Anita,
Also, I’m starting to find everyone attractive again now but I don’t know why, it’s like I find every girl attractive, where as, as many people have told me, if I was bisexual or lesbian I would have a type. Just like I do in boys, I also know it wouldn’t have happened overnight…I’m just hoping that it will ease off eventually because it’s stressing me out so much!!

dear anita,

the exact same thing has been happening to me. I have suffered with anxiety and ptsd most of my life, and I have never thought of a girl in this way before. My feelings started on the 26th September, the day I started my period… I started to find everyone attractive, absolutely everyone, because of this I started overthinking a lot, I was thinking, what if I’m bisexual? what if I’m a lesbian? these thoughts were really disturbing me, because as I said before, I’ve never felt this way before, my hormones were all over the place during my period this time round. anyways, I was really stressing and panicking about it, it got to the point I couldn’t eat, couldn’t drink anything and I couldn’t sleep either, I constantly needed reassurance and I couldn’t look at any women on social media because I’d feel so nervous, I still feel the exact same now, the thought of being bisexual really bothers me and makes me really scared, because I really really do not want to be bisexual or a lesbian, it’s gotten to the point where I’m praying to god and saying I’ll do anything not to be bisexual… these thoughts continued after my period finished 2 weeks ago, but it’s like it’s on my mind 24/7. If I’m doing something to occupy myself, it will settle down, but if not all the emotions just come back. I am seeing a therapist for my anxiety as I had EMDR therapy, and the last time I had the EMDR therapy, nothing about me being bisexual came out, he said it’s completely normal and it’s a stage everyone goes through in life, I feel like the more I think about it the worse it gets. I’m doing all these quizzes to see if I’m bisexual, constantly needing reassurance that I’m not and it’s really getting to me, my feelings just changed overnight, I don’t know if it’s hormonal or anything but I just want to feel myself again it’s really ruining my life, I’ve never had these thoughts before they’re so frightening, I’m only 15 years old myself so it could be to do with puberty, then a few days ago I was researching and google said I could be a lesbian, bare in mind I was still attracted to boys, as soon as I saw those words my body went into meltdown and I was thinking I was a lesbian, I thought about it that much that I stopped finding boys as attractive as I used to, that part has sort of settled down now but I’ve still got a fear what if im a lesbian also, I just really really do not want to be either, it terrifies me. I’m really sorry for bothering you, if anyone has any advice on what to do then please let me know, I just want this feeling gone for good and to feel my happy self again:( have a good day guys x