Also, I was asking how you would like to handle the situation with your family after you’ve moved out because it sounds like your husband would benefit from some support and I thought that perhaps if he knew it was coming when you move out, he might feel a bit better about the situation. 🩵

Hi Nea

I’m glad to read that you’re having some happy moments with Maya and your husband, despite the worries. 😊

I can understand why the situation is making you feel so anxious and feeling a need to talk about it. Even though your husband needs a bit of a break from talking about it, you can share your feelings about it all here when you want to.🩵

It’s never easy to hear those words. 🫂

It’s a really intense time for mothers having a new baby. It’s a real shame that it’s not a relaxed environment for you.

I don’t know what it is about families and babies. Somehow it’s just like funerals. That’s when all the drama comes out of the woodwork. I can’t really go into the details here.🤦‍♀️

Yeah, I imagine you’re really feeling stuck in the middle of it all with everything unresolved?

It seems especially difficult because you’re staying there. You can’t necessarily handle things in an ideal way because I’m guessing there are some cultural rules about staying in someone’s home? In my culture, there is at least.

I wouldn’t really recommend what I did for that reason. I can’t really talk about the details publicly, but if you want to send me an email, I could explain there. No pressure, it’s up to you. 🩵

tbthrowaway64@gmail.com

I would just to try and keep things as calm as possible and figure the rest out later once you’ve moved out. What do you think?

Unfortunately, you can’t control what others choose to do. It would be nice to wave a wand and everyone magically behaves. 🪄

It took me some time to come to terms with that people were just set in their ways and handled things a lot differently than I would. Families are messy sometimes. 🩵

A nap would be super helpful if you get a chance, when someone else watches Maya. Naps were key for me. Honestly, the family drama around a new baby and conflict with partners that occurs then really took a toll for me and I ended up taking antidepressants to help calm my feelings down a bit. I wrote here when I was going through it. Everyone was really nice and supportive. 🙏

It sounds like your husband might be stressed by this situation too and he “copes” by not talking about it. It’s really difficult when you have different needs. But you are just different people and that is okay.

In my country, it would be extremely rude to ignore someone as a guest in their own house, so I can understand why you would like your husband to say hello. At least he’s thinking about it, even if he is changing his mind. Hopefully, he’ll come around in his own time.

Do you think a discussion like your husband wants is likely to happen? Or not? How do you think your father and your husband would react?

Sorry, I totally missed or forgot what the argument was initially about with your father and husband. I seem to remember your father started it and raised his voice? I don’t know how bad the argument was to lead to them ignoring each other? I just read that there was some verbal abuse and your father charged towards him.

I was wondering if once you’ve moved out, you plan to address the situation with your family more directly? 🩵

Hi SWolf

I love that goal. 🩵

Wow you’re doing great with all of the changes recently! Congratulations on lowering your medication. I’m glad your projects are going well too. 👏

One day, I would like to get to the point where I am calm even when things are difficult around me. Like the eye of a storm. I don’t know how feasible that is, but it’s a nice idea. 😊

I have faith that you’ll figure everything out in time. You’ve always had a good head on your shoulders.

In my experience, fear can get easier to deal with, but it’s a long process with ups and downs depending on what is going on in your life. The way I think of it is imagining all the things you feel safe and comfortable with as a circle. Then there are the things that you’re not comfortable with outside of that. The goal is to increase the size of your safe circle and repeating the process can make you feel more capable in doing so again. I don’t know if that makes sense at all?

It’s good to hear that you’re thinking of taking up meditation and journaling again. Practicing emotional regulation skills seems like a very important part of the process. 🩵

Looking forward to reading your updates! 🩵

Hi Tommy

I wouldn’t say just medication. There are lots of ways to rebalance the body depending on the issue. It is a complicated subject.

I’m glad you haven’t had any side effects from your medications. 🙏

I don’t know what you mean about the experience of truth about ourselves? 🩵

Our body is designed to make us rest when we’re ill. If you’re feeling cheery are you as motivated to rest?

On the other hand, studies show that if you have had experiences where you have safely and successfully navigated complex health issues or severe pain such as childbirth. It alters the way your mind perceives pain and lowers the threat level for lower levels of pain and illness.

I guess my approach is to go with the flow. Emotions happen sometimes. That is okay. Sometimes we feel bad. That is okay. Trying to make things easier and trying to practice gratitude when things are hard. Also, okay. If it doesn’t happen, that is okay too.

Just trying your best to deal with what is in the best way you can at the time. 🩵

My son is getting heavy. I started getting injured frequently when trying to lift him. I’ve always been bad for sprains and tendinitis and things. Just got to figure out how to parent without lifting when he takes a mood.

Hi Tommy

There’s a lot of science behind pain. Emotional pain, physical pain, social, noise. These things all often process in our brain through the pain centre. Sleep deprivation makes it worse.

Our bodies have threat detection. It’s kind of scaled on how quickly in the worst case it might kill you. Breathing > temperature > dehydration > minor injuries > hunger > chronic pain > stress

Breathing issues cause anxiety, so treating the anxiety is important. Essentially what Roberta did. When your immune system activates to fight against infection, it can cause physical pain. Women have robust immune systems to protect babies during pregnancy. Men have weaker immune systems.

Managing neurotransmitters determines our mood. Sunlight, rewarding distractions.

Understanding things helps me. Lots of little things can help lessen suffering without even considering the mind. It’s a physical balancing act. Even something as simple as electrolyte imbalance causes physical weakness. When I had stomach flu. I was legitimately surprised how much a rehydration solution helped because I physically couldn’t eat and could barely drink at the time.

Is there any wonder the outcome during illness can be low mood? If all our needs aren’t taken care of? 🩵

Media is also important because our brains aren’t that smart. What we watch is perceived as our immediate physical environment. So if it’s stressful it affects us.

I remember you have blood pressure medication. Does it have a side effects for your breathing? I seem to remember that some can? 🩵

Hi Nea

Thinking of you and your beautiful family! How are you doing? How is baby Maya? 🩵

Bless your soul! They really are so tiny and precious at that age. 🩵

It sounds like she hasn’t figured out when day and night is yet. She’ll get there soon enough. 😊

I think you’re doing the right thing keeping to yourselves. It has been ridiculous, the way your husband has been treat. I’m so sorry for all the stress your family have created in this time, which should be really happy and full of love.

You are protecting your peace and more than capable of giving your daughter that love. 🩵

I’m doing okay. I got a good score on my last test, still working away on the next one. My son had a rough day on Tuesday. He woke up on the wrong side of the bed, I’m glad he’s feeling better now. I think he might have been coming down with something. He starts nursery this month, so that’s exciting. Trying to prepare for that, it’s going to be so weird him being somewhere else. 🩵

Hi Nea

You’re too kind! 😊

For sure, protecting your peace is really important because newborn care is hard work. 🩵

How are you finding being a mother? How is baby Maya settling in? 🩵