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  • #453010
    Alessa
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    Hi Tommy and Anita

    That’s okay, but I also meant if there were any links that might be helpful. 🩵

    I hope you all have a great year coming too. 🩵

    Wasn’t me! I hope lol. For phone users it is a nightmare because you can accidentally hit it whilst scrolling. I know I have done it accidentally in the past and there is no way to unreport, sadly.

    Did any of your messages get reported too Anita? 🩵

    #452984
    Alessa
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    Hi Tommy

    I’ve been learning about Shikantaza. I’d never heard of it before. Most of the meditation I’ve done is based around concentrating and focusing on one thing. I’m definitely cut from what I’ve seen so far. Do you have any recommendations? 🩵

    He has briefly visited with me. But not been on his own yet. He’s not due to start until after new year.

    Thank you for sharing your precious memories. You do the best you can for them and it’s not always easy. I think it shows how much your daughter loved being with you both. I’m glad to hear that it gets easier in time. 🩵

    #452983
    Alessa
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    Hi James

    Humans are remarkably resilient. There was a freak murder of children locally. The parents dropped their kids off to an after school activity and a crazy person walked in off the street and killed the children inside. Yes, these things hurt an unspeakable amount, but people do endure and try to make the best of their lives after. 🩵

    Self-help might not make sense to you. For some it is part of enduring and gives them a measure of peace from the difficulties they experienced. 🩵

    Perhaps it is not for you, but what is the point in judging what others are doing especially when you don’t understand others perspectives? 🩵

    Good luck to you as well James, it was nice to meet you! 🩵

    #452974
    Alessa
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    Hi Tee

    I know you’ll get through it, you’re a very resilient and resourceful woman. I hope it gets easier for you soon. 🩵

    Yes, you are right catastrophsing would only make things worse. 🩵

    What are your favourite techniques for emotionally regulating? I was curious about your mention of somatic techniques earlier. I’m always keen to try new things. 🩵

    That is a shame it doesn’t copy and paste. It must be because I’m on a mobile.

    Thank you for your kindness Tee and for not judging me! It means more than you know. You’re an angel 😇 🩵

    I’ll try and keep it short and sweet, because I read that you’re stepping back from tb a bit and working on a project. Please take as much time as you need to reply. No rush. 🩵

    I’m actually a quiet person with a soft voice. It is a challenge for me to sound more serious. 😊

    Fortunately, it never got to the stage of needing to prevent myself from acting on them. 🩵

    Yes, it was all very frightening. I guess they need to do these things because they have to rule out psychosis which could lead to a baby being harmed.

    Therapy for post partum depression is not really recommended. They tend to rely on medication, but I was breastfeeding couldn’t take medication until I stopped.

    I had a short course of therapy for the intrusive thoughts because I started having panic attacks. Now, I have a good albeit expensive therapist who specialises in postpartum, neurodivergence and trauma. All is well that ends well. 😊

    Yes, she did blame us and didn’t want to admit her mistakes. I think admitting mistakes is important because it is not healthy to gloss over abuse. The gaslighting is so harmful of course. In a way, I was lucky that my abuse was so cut and dry. The attempts at gaslighting were rather transparent.

    With the blaming and gaslighting along with the physical needs being taken care of, as well as the abuse. I imagine it would be rather confusing for a child and hard to understand clearly what is going on. 🩵

    She tried to get help by the time I was in my tweens. She was taking medication for a while before, but the doctor she had was not helpful and just brushed her off as depressed. She needed a lot more than antidepressants.

    It wasn’t until we moved to a bigger town and her doctor changed that she started getting more help and she was taken more seriously. We got a social worker who was terrible. We did family therapy briefly which was useless. Then she let me go to therapy on my own. Eventually she started seeing her own psychologist or psychiatrist and was institutionalised.

    Yes, I agree. When I was in school we didn’t have psychologists at all. Schools here do have them now though, I hear, which is an upgrade.

    That is a shame your school psychologist didn’t bother with other kids only the troublesome ones. I agree, all children should be supported to the fullest extent. You deserved help and care as much as any other child. 🩵

    It is a shame that your school’s psychologist was viewed as problematic by children. That must have discouraged children from actively seeking help?

    I feel like teachers are in the best position to pick up on difficulties that children have, since they spend the most time with them. It would be great if they had some trauma informed training to spot signs of difficulties and I agree with you about mental health support. It is such a shame that they are so overworked. 🩵

    Thinking of you, take care 🩵

    #452973
    Alessa
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    Hi Roberta

    I’m sorry to hear that your father is in the long stay unit. 🩵

    Is this a fairly recent change? If so, how are you both adjusting? How are the staff? 🩵

    That is a really good idea, if only you had a million. 😊

    It is a shame how expensive elder care is.

    I can hear how much you want to be there for him. I think you know that you are doing the right thing though, you always do the best you can for him. 🩵

    Wow, you are a quick reader! You might finish it before I do. I hope you enjoyed the party and found some good nuggets of conversation. 🥳 🩵

    #452961
    Alessa
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    Hi James

    I’m sorry to hear that you’re thinking of leaving the site. I enjoyed our conversations and learning about your perspective. I think it would be a loss for you to leave. 🩵

    If you would like to stay in touch please feel free to email me at tbthrowaway64@gmail.com

    You have a point about money, I think that if a regular needed help people would be willing to offer it. I don’t know if any of us could donate $1000. I don’t have that much money, but we could try our best with what we have and are able to give. 😅

    I think people find your words a bit controversial, but I don’t think you mean them badly. You have a good heart. 🩵

    I guess my perspective about kindness is um that perhaps it can be helpful to not be so cynical. Perhaps people might surprise you, if you give them a chance. 🩵

    Maybe it is easier to shut people out with controversial words, call it a wash and start somewhere new. Instead of being at peace with the world as it is. Then again, maybe we have nothing to offer you and that is okay too if you feel that way. 🩵

    #452952
    Alessa
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    Hi Everyone

    Can we please move this to another thread. There is a setting where the owner of the thread gets emailed the replies. 🩵

    Thanks 🙏

    #452930
    Alessa
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    Hi Aleah

    I’m so glad that you managed to work through these difficulties and get to a place where you are confident in your self-worth! Congratulations.🩵

    You offer a lot of insight and good advice! I’m sure that you’ll shine a light and give hope to many others. 🩵

    #452888
    Alessa
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    Hi Roberta

    Thanks for sharing! I enjoyed the video.

    It’s a good reminder to be mindful of our perspective, the choices we make and how these factors affect our experiences. 🩵

    This is a link to the Daoist book which the story I shared on Peter’s thread was from.

    https://archive.org/details/book-of-master-lie-lieh-tzu-thomas-cleary/page/n43/mode/1up

    #452913
    Alessa
    Participant

    Hi Tommy

    Very true! It is important for me to work on that. 🩵

    Not at all. You made me smile. I appreciate when people are frank with their thoughts. It takes the guess work out of it. 😄

    Possibly they felt because he had bothered to teach it at all, it had merit? Perhaps for a monk the hardest attachment to overcome might be Buddhas own words? 🩵

    #452911
    Alessa
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    Hi James

    I just think faith is something that unfolds over time. Like anything else, children don’t have the maturity to understand it yet. We can teach them the rules and hope that it will sink in, in time. 🩵

    Yes, I understand and believe that. But it isn’t comforting to me. I guess because my life was so unstable when I was young. 🩵

    You underestimate my attachment to trees. 😉

    Funnily enough, this is me “better”. I know I have more work to do. I am of the world though, I don’t seek perfection. I will try my best, take the lessons as they come and try to take care of my family, as much as anyone can. 🩵

    I know my son is happy. That is undeniable, his laughter is infectious. 🩵

    #452910
    Alessa
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    Dear Anita

    Wow actively silenced around others. I’m so sorry. There are no words to describe the enforced cruelty you endured. 🤍

    I’m so glad that you managed to overcome this enforced silence your mother imposed. It truly shows your strength and commitment to healing from your trauma. Learning to trust people after all of this is entirely down to your good nature and hard work. I say hard work, because it must not have been an easy journey. 🤍

    Please feel free to express anything! And of course you are welcome to write in my threads too. 🤍

    Thank you for your kindness! It means a lot. I really do try my best. 🤍

    #452909
    Alessa
    Participant

    Hi Peter and Everyone

    I was thinking on the story and used Gemini to help me to write about the themes. I think this story exemplifies various aspects of Daoism. I hope you find it as interesting as I do. 🩵

    Detailed Analysis of Major Themes in the Shang Qiukai Story
    1. The Theme of Spiritual and Psychological Mastery

    This is the core philosophical theme derived from Daoist thought, centered on the power of the unified mind.

    The Supremacy of Sincerity (Chéng): The story argues that the most potent force in the universe is unqualified sincerity. Shang Qiukai’s success stemmed from his ability to achieve a state of absolute concentration where the mind was not split by fear, doubt, or greed. This concentration was so perfect it made him immune to the conditioned laws of the physical world (fire, gravity).

    Effort Meets Grace: The beggar’s life-threatening risks (going “out on a limb”) were the crucible that forged this sincerity. The universe only intervenes when the individual is willing to sacrifice everything, suggesting that grace (or reward) meets courage at the point of ultimate commitment.

    Accidental Mastery: The beggar did not train for this power; he accidentally achieved the mental state of the Daoist “True Man” by simply trying to survive the aristocratic game. His profound desperation served as a shortcut to spiritual non-attachment.

    2. The Theme of Social and Karmic Justice

    This theme addresses the moral imbalance of the world and its ultimate reversal by universal law (Karma/Fate).

    The Pitfalls of Humanity (The Aristocrats): The aristocrats represent the spiritual and moral vices and delusions that arise from power and wealth (malice, cruelty, greed, calculation). They tried to inflict suffering but were ultimately undone by their own moral corruption.

    The Karmic Inversion: The universe actively corrects the moral imbalance. The aristocrats were punished not by physical harm, but by humiliation, dependence, and fear—a consequence directly proportional to their malicious intent.

    The Beggar as a Force of Nature: The beggar’s morality (non-malice and sincerity) and his poverty (his complete disposability) combined to make him a Force of Nature that defied the rules of the aristocrats’ world. The universe favored his essential goodness over their active vice.

    3. The Theme of Moral Efficacy Despite Ignorance (The Flawed Foundation)

    This crucial theme, hinted at by philosophical commentary (like that of Confucius), provides the final ethical critique.

    Ignorance as the Catalyst: The beggar’s power was rooted in his ignorance of the moral and factual truth: he believed a lie about the reward and the noble’s power. His unwavering trust was born from this lack of wisdom.

    The Unstable Victory: This means the beggar’s success, while miraculous, was fundamentally unstable and unwise. True, enduring virtue (Zhi) requires conscious knowledge and ethical discernment, not blind faith in deceit.

    The Confucian Critique: The final commentary highlights that true moral power must be based on a foundation of conscious virtue and knowledge of right and wrong, rather than mere desperation and accidental single-mindedness achieved through a corrupt means.

    4. The Theme of The Psychology of Survival and Class

    This theme grounds the philosophy in the harsh reality of social stratification and the mindset of the poor.

    The Catalyst of Deprivation: The beggar’s chronic hunger and cold were the engine of his desperation, eliminating his rational fear and creating the psychological necessity for his absolute commitment.

    Normalization of Abuse: His life of low status and normalized abuse made him compliant and willing to accept the extreme risks, setting the stage for his miraculous effort.

    Security as the True Reward: The reward of “meat and silk” was the perfect symbolic negation of his initial suffering. This fulfillment of basic needs is seen as the necessary step that opens the mind to spiritual practice, transforming a desperate man into a secure individual.

    #452895
    Alessa
    Participant

    Hi Roberta

    I left a message, it’s awaiting moderation because there was a link in it.

    I forgot to add because I just came back from a walk. I’m sorry to hear that your father was/is in hospital. Do you think he will be coming out again? Or is it long term at this point? 🩵

    Sorry for bringing it up if you don’t want to talk about it. 🩵

    #452893
    Alessa
    Participant

    Hi Tommy

    Fair enough! That is more than most do. 🩵

    I don’t mind believing, but I don’t like to put labels on it. 😊

    I like stories too. Hmm well, it would seem to me that not helping is a bigger problem than touching. But of course it is still important to be mindful of rules.

    It reminds me of before a Buddha passed away, he told the monks that they didn’t have to follow the lesser rules all the time because they were not as serious. But the monks decided to follow them anyway out of respect for his teachings. 🩵

    I don’t know if you would agree with what came to mind for me?

    It is okay! I was curious too. Nothing wrong with being different. 🩵

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