Dear Anita

I hear your longing for a mother to love. It is truly a shame. She and you would have been entirely different people if that were the case.🤍

It is good that you place the responsibility squarely where it lies. With your mother and not yourself. I’m sorry that you suffered at her hands, I know you deserved so much more. 🤍

I’m glad to hear that your disassociation and ticks are easing. You deserve peace and to be completely free of her. 🤍

I do honestly think you are making the right decision not to contact her before she dies. I don’t plan on doing that either with my mother.

You spend a lot of your life with her. It is only fair that you experience peace without her. As you say, not everything is about her. It is your time now. Not hers. 🤍

Hi James

Well, most people who want to help people choose to study with the lineages because they feel it helps them to help even more people. But it is okay if you are happy where you are. 🩵

It is hard work and a lifetime of practice and commitment, especially when lineage heads don’t even consider themselves enlightened. Just progressing through various stages. 🩵

Hi Confused

Sadly, being left alone is the only thing that resolves fits of rage in Tourettes. But how is a child supposed to know that?

All that would mean is that it wouldn’t be because she disliked you. It would not be about who you were as a person. It would be because her brain was not working correctly. 🩵

I can hear how heavy it was for you as a child. How much you went through because of your mother’s condition. With her being so unstable, you couldn’t rely on her. 🩵

You have a lot of empathy for your mother and her condition. But it is a traumatic experience for a child who is not equipped to be a care taker. 🩵

I can hear how hurt and confused it left you feeling, that you experienced volatility, as well as love. 🩵

Your advice to your younger self is excellent. And I think it applies to yourself today as well. 🩵

I think you were really brave, doing your best to cope in a very difficult situation as a child. And to come out of it so kind, shows exactly how good a person you are. 🩵

Hi Tee

Well, I think one way progressive muscle relaxation can be seen as stressful is when pain is involved, People are not fond of sitting with pain and exploring it. From a TCM perspective, there are some beliefs about intention and different kinds of qi, which can be guided by intention. When someone is ill it is thought to be better not to move qi around.

A calm mind is favoured, and a calm mind calms the body. 🩵

And the way that this symptom is calmed is by leaving the person alone. 🩵

Hi Confused

Sorry to chime in but didn’t your mother have Tourette’s? For people who have Tourette’s 1/4 of them suffer from fits of rage where they have no control over their behaviour for a brief time. Do you think she might have been one of the 1 in 4? 🩵

If she was one of these 1 in 4, it would still be horrible that you went through these experiences with her. But it would be because of her condition as you say. It is such a shame, because a child shouldn’t have to deal with these things. 🩵