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  • in reply to: Strong desire to fall in love again #447268
    Alessa
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    Hi Tea

    How does meeting someone happen organically? Honestly, it starts as friendship. So that would mean spending time with men somehow. A hobby group or some kind of activity? Another option is parties, but I expect you might find that not to your liking because a lot of people are drunk and hook up at parties.

    Honestly, this is the truth because it’s always how I’ve dated. I don’t like the apps and I’m in my 30s.

    I wouldn’t worry too much about dating. You have plenty of time. Some people settle. You’re not a settler. You are after quality and that takes time. Not to mention, work and studying are far more important than a boyfriend. No offence. You sound like you are very busy. 😊

    It’s okay to miss having a partner though. It is nice. And I can understand the feeling of missing out. But truly you aren’t, because you wouldn’t want to be with someone you aren’t compatible with. A partner should add to your life, not detract from it.

    You sound like someone who is very self aware. I love how you have explored and become more confident in yourself.

    I can understand being torn between travelling and family. I had that desire too. I’m sure you’ll settle on a decision that feels right for you. There are no wrong answers. ❤️

    in reply to: need help recently break up #447266
    Alessa
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    Hi Confused

    I’m sorry to hear that you and your boyfriend broke up. I hear that you still love and care about him. ❤️

    It seems that the difficulty is that he just doesn’t have the time and energy for a partner right now. He wasn’t able to show up for the relationship and it took a toll. It is especially hard when both parties have difficulties talking about these things.

    To me, it sounds like you did the right thing by taking a break. As for getting back together, I don’t expect things to change until his situation improves. If you want to deal with that stress and support him in this difficult period, that is up to you. It sounds like you tried and it hurt you though. Perhaps you could keep in touch and see if his situation improves and give things a shot then if you’re both still interested?

    in reply to: Feeling left out..again #447229
    Alessa
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    Hi CinCin

    I’m sorry to hear about the difficulties with feeling left out. It seems complicated. It seems like you have a desire to be invited, but not necessarily to go to these events. Am I misunderstanding this?

    If you truly wanted to go to these nights out. You could have just said “I’d like to come along. Is that okay?” Are there reasons why you didn’t do that?

    You have some concerns about the dynamics of this trip. Does that mean that your concerns aren’t solely due to practical limitations of attending?

    Wanting to be invited is fair, but people often stop asking if someone says no though or doesn’t show interest. It might be helpful to make an arrangement with them where if you feel like going it is okay for you to go along without them asking. Just having that clarity of an unconditional invitation at all times when your wife is invited might make you feel better? This is usually implied in my experience.

    Be aware that if you are asking for this it might be considered rude, if you don’t go on the trip as you would be asking to be included, be included and be rejecting them.

    It is worth considering if you actually want to go on the trip or not.

    Otherwise, why don’t you ask your wife if she wants you to come on the trip? You could express your concerns to her that when you don’t get an invitation, it makes you worry that people don’t want you there. You could express that you don’t always want to go, but sometimes you do and it is nice to be invited and included in chats, so you can make a decision. It’s certainly okay to have a conversation with your wife about this.

    Or is it the friend that you are more worried about, as opposed to your wife? Do you worry that your friend doesn’t want you there?

    in reply to: Your Hands and the Ten Worlds #447220
    Alessa
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    Hi Steve

    Oh yeah, Reddit is a dumpster fire. 🔥 😂

    You are more than welcome here. 😄

    You are welcome to spoil the secret to koans.

    I really enjoy eastern philosophy and religion. I’ve learned about many of these things over the years. I’m not familiar with Hinduism though, I do hear the cosmology is shared with Buddhism. Since they both originated in India, it isn’t a huge surprise.

    I enjoy religion in general because I feel like it was psychology before psychology was a thing.

    I love reading Confucianism and Daoism, whilst seeing some of the Masters appear in each other’s texts. It makes me wonder if they actually met, or if they were just paying their respects by including each other in their books.

    I’m particularly fond of Daoism, but in my country there aren’t many people practicing it. Buddhism on the other hand is popular. I’ve settled into learning more about that. There really is so much to learn!

    I guess, the same as other religions. Immigration, war, people share. It’s what we do.

    It is fascinating how popular cultivation was for royalty, monks, scholars and holy men. It is nice that things are opening up more to other people. Although, to some extent a level of exclusivity still persists today.

    Keen to hear your perspective. Please feel free to share your thoughts! ❤️

    in reply to: Developing Compassion and Self-Compassion #447219
    Alessa
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    Hi Steve

    Thank you for sharing some of your story! ❤️

    Wow, 600 kids in a day is enough to make anyone’s head spin! Let alone for 28 years. Congratulations, I dare say you helped create more than a few musicians out there! Bring music to the world, as well as to children and making it a brighter place. ☀️

    Congratulations on the 10 books as well! If you would like to share them, I’d be happy to read. It will take me a while though because I have a toddler at home. 😊

    Oh yes, I can empathise with the experience of new chapters and shifts in identity. Not an easy thing necessarily to go through. I’m glad that you found your way through your identity crisis. ❤️

    I noticed that when I am having difficulties with people and feeling hurt, they are often feeling the same way and vice versa. It is interesting the synchronicity that people develop.

    in reply to: Life Worth Living- what is it like? #447217
    Alessa
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    Hi Anita

    Thank you for your kindness. I really appreciate you! ❤️

    I’m sorry to hear that you live in an area with no public transport. That is a real pain in the butt!

    My apologies, I didn’t want to assume. I know some people who just don’t like public transport. Or sometimes it is too difficult for them to get to.

    I really like cycling. I can’t drive because of my dyspraxia. I feel like it is much easier to get around with a bicycle, as opposed to walking.

    I’m glad that you have a special person helping you with ordering things online. ❤️Perhaps they will be able to help you with the clothing conundrum? A lot of countries have different websites. I’m not sure what would be the popular ones for clothing in America.

    I’m sorry to hear that people took her side and didn’t stand up for you. It’s a horrible thing to experience growing up around people who validated her abuse and gave no thought to the suffering you endured.

    Since you say that you have more difficulty communicating in person and find it easier to communicate here, it must be hard for you that so many people you have cared about have moved on from this website. I do get the sense that you care about each and every person.

    That you often find yourself in a caregiver role, supporting people freely with no expectations is another layer too.

    It is difficult because conflict is natural to occur in any relationship and a lot of people are particularly sensitive here. I don’t mean that in a bad way, it is just less likely to overcome normal difficulties with relationships than usual, sadly. I know that our difficulties sucked, but I’m glad that we hung in there, figured things out and learned to trust each other. ❤️

    Alessa
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    Hi Steve

    Autists are not narcissists. They are capable of empathy, but have theory of mind deficits which means that they have difficulty understanding others unique experiences, thoughts and feelings. They can learn to understand these things if they have the interest, teaching aids and cognitive skills. What this means, is that there tends to be an assumption that other people feel similarly to their own experiences.

    Narcissism is defined by a lack of empathy.

    The two may appear similar, but are ultimately different and have different causes.

    in reply to: Your Hands and the Ten Worlds #447167
    Alessa
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    Hi Steve

    Welcome! I’m glad to see you created a thread of your own. Thank you for sharing! I enjoyed reading what you have to say about the 10 realms. ❤️

    I hadn’t thought of linking the realms to a mudra. Interesting.

    I’m a simple and practical person. I enjoy koans, but I don’t think I’m the target audience. My answer is just silence. 😊

    I tend to think of the realms in the sense of reincarnation. I do just take things at face value though.

    Thinking of the realms and mudra in the way that you explained it is a nice idea. On one hand the causes of suffering, the other is the path to freedom from it.

    One hand washes the other. And the mudra forming a whole. For what is one hand without the other? Surely, we would not be living?

    I hope to hear from you again soon! ❤️

    in reply to: Life Worth Living- what is it like? #447166
    Alessa
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    Hi Everyone

    I guess, I’m just practical and find politics distasteful. There is a global recession looming and war is used to prop up economies and compete for resources. I wish we could find a better way, perhaps we will in time? Who knows, technology may even lead us there? It will lead to some pretty radical changes in society for sure. I simply am not in a position of power to change things, so I try not to worry about what I can’t change.

    I don’t feel a need to fit in. I prefer quality over quantity. Perhaps it is because I moved a lot? The nature of temporary relationships is even beautiful in its own way to me. I appreciate meeting new people and value even the limited time that I spend with people that touch my life. We are all busy living our own lives, caring for our loved ones and trying to survive. That some people leave our lives and some people stay makes those who we choose to spend time with even more special.

    I do enjoy the energy of concerts. It is nice being in a place where everyone is happy and enjoying music together.

    I do believe in the value of human connection. Peter is right, there is no replacing it. AI doesn’t truly care. It is just an illusion.

    I noticed recently that AI tends to adapt to its user based on their input and I found it a bit disturbing. I hadn’t realised that before. It was very clear to me because I don’t use it very often and when I do use it I give very basic commands. I asked a question and it started to use this new question in the feedback to commands input later on.

    It confirmed my suspicions. Upon research, AI is used as a mirror. It doesn’t challenge its user unless asked to and has a tendency to only present things that the user wants to hear creating bias.

    I might be the odd duck here, but I appreciate reading both of your perspectives and care because you are both very special people who I learn a lot from. ❤️ ❤️

    in reply to: Life Worth Living- what is it like? #447135
    Alessa
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    Hi Anita

    Not to worry, I used to teach digital literacy. You might not realise this, but you are doing quite well with technology. A lot of people can’t do anything at all. So even though it is tricky and takes time to learn because of your difficulties, I have faith that you will get there in time. Just be gentle and patient with yourself while you’re getting used to it. ❤️

    I always used to say, that if you aren’t working in technology not to worry if there are things that you can’t do, as long as you can do the things that you want and need to do, that is the main thing. That’s why other people work in IT to help everyone else out with the harder stuff. 😊

    That’s honestly fair, a lot of people don’t like driving long distances. It does sound like a long way to walk though. Are there any public transport options?

    Online shopping might be a good idea to try, if you have a good mail service. The main thing is not to go onto websites that aren’t well known because it is not safe to give out card details freely.

    http://www.amazon.com is very well known and safe to use. It has a very good return policy.

    You would have to go through various stages.

    Registering or creating an account.

    Searching for items and adding them to your “basket”

    Adding card and address details

    Placing the order or checking out

    If you take it in stages, and practice bit by bit I’m sure you’ll get there in the end. What people tend to get stuck on is creating passwords. If you have any questions about anything I’d be happy to help.

    Thank you, it’s very kind of you to say!

    I have never heard anything so ridiculous as you supposedly being hateful. It sounds like she projected herself onto you a lot. She was the hateful one, which is why she couldn’t see your inherent goodness. But her cruelty couldn’t stamp out your love and kindness. It only grows, day by day. I’m sorry that you grew up with a hateful mother, a very painful experience indeed and despite the pain, you loved her anyway. I’m glad that you were strong enough to hold onto your kindness and she didn’t manage to take that from you. I wouldn’t have been lucky enough to meet you if she had. ❤️

    in reply to: Life Worth Living- what is it like? #447125
    Alessa
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    Hi Anita

    Now they are trying self service checkouts. Where you scan things and put them on a scale to be weighed and there is often a camera to prevent theft. You have to press options on a screen.

    Most new cards do contactless. So all you do is tap it against the card reader. But to use that feature you have to put the card into the box with the keypad and put the pin number in then press the enter or green button. After you do that once you can use contactless. Occasionally they do make you enter the pin again as a safety measure.

    At a register the cashier will often direct you where to put your card if it looks like you’re struggling because there are so many different types of card readers. There is usually a slot to pop your card in somewhere. I always indicate whether I’m paying by card or cash to the cashier, because they have to turn the card reader on. If you struggle with the card reader, give your card to the cashier. They are used to helping. 😊

    I appreciate that you’re a very compassionate person and very thoughtful about your politics. Not everyone is so kind. ❤️

    Bless well you can’t be too careful in this world. It is sensible not to hitchhike. I’m glad you stay safe. It’s good that you enjoy walking too.

    It could be nice for you to get some new clothes, if you’re interested there are so many different styles and options nowadays. It is a form of self-expression for many.

    I’m impressed that you manage to get by without money. You must be a very resourceful person. ❤️

    Thinking of you!

    in reply to: Life Worth Living- what is it like? #447077
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    in reply to: Life Worth Living- what is it like? #447076
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    Hi Anita

    I feel badly for all of the people (and their loved ones) involved in the ongoing conflicts with Israel. I fear this will not be the end.

    Governments are flawed all over the world, but it is truly the people that suffer when wars break out. No one deserves to die so that the rich can make even money by selling weapons.

    in reply to: Developing Compassion and Self-Compassion #447069
    Alessa
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    Hi Tommy

    I can understand hope being a form of clinging for you. You have your own ways and it is important to honour them. What will happen will happen. Yes, practicing acceptance and being in the present is the best way and something that I’m trying to work on too. Do you have any tips?

    I’m British and a lot of the time in the UK, people feel uncomfortable when they receive a compliment. I don’t wish to make you feel uncomfortable. I know that when I was less comfortable with myself I felt hurt and confused I received them too.

    I can understand pressure being helpful for growth, I’m that way too. I just find that other things are helpful for growth too, not just pressure. It seems like you have an internal resistance to being treat with kindness? Perhaps it would benefit you to overcome that? To be able to accept it without feeling like you don’t deserve it?

    I found it freeing not to be repulsed by kindness. Freeing to accept myself. Because accepting the future is all well and good. Accepting yourself is a part of acceptance, is it not?

    I have been kinder to you than before because I worried that being less kind hurt you when you left before. I’m happy to relax that if it would make you more comfortable.

    I always found your perspective helpful. To be honest, I wish that I could talk to you by email, because I don’t discuss my personal life here anymore. I could really use your advise. I don’t want to pressure you though. Especially when it seems like you don’t want to talk.

    I will miss you, but I wish you luck on your journey. ❤️

    in reply to: Life Worth Living- what is it like? #447033
    Alessa
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    Hi Anita

    It sounds like you have so much weighing on you at the moment. Even one of the issues is a lot to deal with.

    Very true, sometimes it feels like being an adult we are expected to cope with more and more and more. It can be very overwhelming. Yet, somehow we are expected to pretend that we are all fine through our difficulties? Square it away into little boxes and not think about it until we have to, pretending that it doesn’t exist? Or someone says try feeling your feelings for 15 minutes a day?

    I cannot imagine what it is like to endure what you are currently going through. You might not see it, but you have a lot of strength. I am praying for you, as well as your family. ❤️

    I’m glad that you have this space to explore, to feel, to reach out.

    Your mother may not have seen you, but plenty of people here have. You are a good and special person with a big heart. I love seeing you open up. ❤️

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