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  • in reply to: Zen Story #455312
    Alessa
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    Dear Tommmy

    Well it is the time of year to dream big. 😁

    I hear you about the vacation. Nothing like a vacation to literally leave your worries at home. The sun sounds nice! Visiting family has it’s merits too.

    I’m doing okay, thanks! Tired and heading to bed. 🩵

    in reply to: Alone Again, Naturally #455311
    Alessa
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    Dear Anita

    It sounds like you’re having a wonderful day. A tattoo appointment, wine, a dog, childhood music, company and a warm fireplace. 🤍

    Do you know what kind of tattoo you want to get?

    The antibiotics seem to be helping. I can’t complain too much. 😊 The dog seems to be feeling a little better today. Ups and downs, but it generally takes a couple of weeks to heal. 1 down, half way through the next.

    I’m sorry to hear that it’s difficult for you to talk to your sister. Is it partially because she stayed in your mother’s life? 🤍

    I thought about getting in touch with my brother, but ultimately decided against it because it could open a can of worms with my mother and I just don’t want any drama.

    You have suffered a lot, but you have always been a person. 🤍

    I know it can feel-less than. The pain of trauma. As my therapist said, “It is natural for people to react in these ways when experiencing these kinds of difficulties.” It is human.

    I hear you about the freedom from the pain. Day by day, I hope you feel a bit lighter. 🤍

    I’m sorry to hear you’re having shoulder pain with the pulling on the lead. Is it getting bad? I think it’s a hard thing to heal because you walk them every day, so you keep re-injuring yourself. Anti-shock leads are really good and there are harnesses designed to prevent pulling. For training to walk without pulling, the key for me has been to stop and start. If they are relaxed on the lead, walk. If they aren’t stop. I hope that it helps. I know different dogs respond to different techniques though. 🤍

    Hmm I didn’t know what to share about being alone. After having a think, it seems like I have difficulty being alone. I rely on others being a source of love. I’m trying to work on being a bit more self-reliant. 🤍

    in reply to: Prison House of Language #455305
    Alessa
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    Hi Peter

    Missed you! 🩵

    Language acquisition is fascinating in toddlers.

    Everyone who cares for the child becomes Mum because mum is a function to them. Not a name.

    No, can also mean yes. But also no. They learn that they are told no when they want something sometimes. This is the reason it’s complicated.

    They don’t hesitate to be blunt with their words. Go away! *cries* 😱 He doesn’t even know it’s a little rude. 😂

    He’s just seen the dog being told go away, when she tries to beg for food. He knows that tears communicate what he is feeling.

    I think the way children process language is fascinating. It’s straightforward and innocent. Nothing to forgive.
    🩵

    I feel like parents words are etched in stone. But they are just people talking and usually it’s nothing important. But children learn from the people around them, carefully memorising.

    in reply to: Zen Story #455287
    Alessa
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    Hi Tommy

    A cruise sounds like just what the doctor ordered! Is there anywhere you would like to go? 🚢 🌊 ☀️

    I have faith that you will manage with the heater just fine. 🩵

    Perhaps it’s not so much that she’s afraid of you messing up, just that she is afraid of being without a heater when it’s cold. Even a tiny, remote chance can put the fear in people.

    Are you doing anything nice to celebrate? 🩵

    in reply to: Alone Again, Naturally #455286
    Alessa
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    Dear Anita

    How are you doing? 🤍

    It is sad that you weren’t allowed a favourite colour, to be close to other family members or have friends. Not many people are that controlling. 🫂

    It’s pretty amazing that you managed to get away from her considering all you’ve been through. 🤍

    I’m glad that you get to be your own person now. Finally! Makes me think of a question that many people have asked, “Who am I?”. “Who is Anita?”.

    I like nice people too!

    Thank you for thinking of us! 😁 🤍

    We’re okay. I have a UTI and my dog has a cut on her toe that is driving us all mad.

    It’s been busy. Studying, friends, cleaning, getting the smart meter sorted out. Started properly nappy training. My son is on the last size of nappies and stores apparently don’t believe that the biggest size deserves to be on sale. What about the big boys? He’s doing a better job of sitting on the potty and even tried to do a poo. 💩 He seems less afraid now.

    in reply to: Zen Story #455247
    Alessa
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    Dear Tommy

    It’s okay, your way of enjoying stories is valid. No need to pick anything apart. 🩵

    Oh, not yet. The cat isn’t due for another month. You’re busy as ever! I like fixing things too. I’m not even as close to as good at it as you though. That’s pretty cool you are able to help others with your skills. 😊

    I like the problem solving and it is nice to have something concrete out of it if all goes well. It almost feels creative especially when you start winging it.

    Oh yes, got to keep the boy nice and toasty. Just paying the price for it. 😂 😭

    I hope you and your family are well? Stay warm and have a Happy Lunar New Year! 🌙 🩵

    in reply to: Alone Again, Naturally #455246
    Alessa
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    Dear Anita

    I hope you enjoy the breathing, the space and having a place where you can be yourself. You deserve the freedom to just be, especially after everything you’ve been through. 🤍

    in reply to: Zen Story #455215
    Alessa
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    Hi Everyone

    I really loved this thread. It was a shame I didn’t have enough time to reply. It brought me a lot of peace. It was lovely watching the guys chat. 😁 🩵

    The moon cannot be stolen is beautiful. It reminds me of a song by Nina Simone.

    We are lucky. I was watching a medical show and they did a stint abroad in a place without access to doctors. So many people were dying of things that doctors help with every day. The doctors on a mission could only help so many people and had to decide who gets the chance to live. Sometimes we forget how lucky we are. 🩵

    The silence story is a funny story. Taking it seriously, I wonder why the head monk gets so many words. Did he ever try to help the monk who was struggling? 🩵

    The Christian story, I read online that the eye of the needle was the name of a gate to a city. Laden camels needed to be unburdened to enter. I think it adds nuance.

    The Zen story about the diamonds. I wonder if the rich man was travelling around asking others people the secret to happiness? Did he even expect a satisfactory answer? Did at least a small part of him hope? I guess, when the master took the diamonds and ran away he might have believed he’d lost his only chance to be happy.

    Maybe it is wishful thinking that the story is not really about diamonds. 💎 Just a desperately unhappy person who has everything, who would pay a lot of money for the answer.

    A lot of people are reactive with their emotions and perception.

    There was a story in a kids show called Bluey.

    THE FARMER AND HIS HORSE
    (OR THE OLD MAN OF THE FRONTIER LOST HIS HORSE)

    Once upon a time, an old farmer living on the frontier lost his horse.

    His neighbors in the village said, “What bad luck!”

    The old man replied, “Maybe. We’ll see.”

    The next day, the horse returned with five more wild horses.

    The neighbors came and said,” Wow! What good luck!”

    The old man said, “Maybe. We’ll see.”

    The next morning the old man’s son tried to ride one of the wild horses, but the horse threw him off, and the boy broke his leg.

    The neighbors said again, “What bad luck!”

    The old man replied, “Maybe. We’ll see.”

    The next day, soldiers arrived to take young men off to war, but the old man’s son didn’t have to go because of his broken leg.

    The neighbors said, “What good luck!”

    And do you know what the old man said?

    REFLECTION QUESTIONS

    Were each of these events good luck or bad luck?
    What are some of the bad events in your life that led to something good?
    Based on the story, how should you react to good or bad events?

    in reply to: Parent Life #455177
    Alessa
    Participant

    Dear Anita

    Thank you! 🙏 That is honestly fair! 🤍

    I think the reason I had difficulty with anger is because my mother didn’t feel comfortable letting us express or process anger. She would get violent if we did. I learned to express sadness instead and keep anger locked deep inside. I became uncomfortable with expressing it.

    Empathy is part of my experience because I’m a parent. Sometimes there are difficult moments that make me understand more about her challenges as a parent.

    I am sure we will both do wonderfully on our respective journeys. I can wait to see how things evolve. 😊 🤍

    in reply to: Parent Life #455176
    Alessa
    Participant

    Dear Tommy

    I’m glad to hear that music helps you! 🩵

    Yes, I’m only really starting to explore the impact of music on mood. Any recommendations are welcome. 🙏

    in reply to: Parent Life #455158
    Alessa
    Participant

    Dear Tommy

    Thank you for the beautiful song! I listened to it for the second time in my life. You have excellent taste in music. 🩵 😊

    in reply to: Parent Life #455157
    Alessa
    Participant

    Dear Anita

    I understand why you feel the way you feel and respect it. 🤍

    I’m just a different person and see things differently. I’ve been on a quest to forgive my mother for 10 years. Now, I’m starting to think that I forgave her when I said goodbye. But forgiving someone doesn’t stop memories from hurting. Maybe the underlying goal was to stop hurting. That isn’t how life works though.

    How I feel is not a commentary on your experience though. Our journeys are very personal. Your thoughts and feelings are valid. 🤍

    You have been through a lot and you deserve to handle things in a way that makes you comfortable. 🤍

    If I can forgive my mother and I can forgive my rapist, I think I need to work on being a lot kinder to myself because I’m not being fair to myself.

    in reply to: Inspirational videos & books #455146
    Alessa
    Participant

    Hi Roberta

    Thank you for sharing! What an inspirational journey. 😊

    The song was beautiful too. 🩵

    in reply to: Parent Life #455076
    Alessa
    Participant

    On the one hand, a broke, traumatised, mentally ill teenager having children. Completely alone.

    On the other, the abused children of unfit parents. Completely alone.

    The story writes itself.

    You didn’t deserve everything you went through. With all of the abuse, good moments few and far between don’t make up for it. They just were.

    What happened to you was not okay. It makes me angry thinking about it. You deserved to be protected. Instead, she hurt you… a lot. Over and over again.

    Maybe I shouldn’t empathise with her because of what she did?

    It’s okay. 🥺 I loved her and hated her. I just didn’t want to be hurt, so I left.

    I’m still angry about what happened. Anyone would be.

    It’s been a long time. Half of my life. My life is full. It feels far away.

    But you still feel it, in your body. It could be worse. In your life. I wouldn’t be where I am today without it.

    Maybe next time. I can be angry and thankful. 🙏 🩵

    in reply to: Parent Life #455075
    Alessa
    Participant

    Dear Anita

    Thanks so much for your kindness! 🤍

    I guess for me, it didn’t confuse me as a child. As an adult, it’s more confusing now. The confusing part is how to hold empathy for her and myself at the same time. The child in me gets angry thinking about it.

    I’m sorry it was difficult for you too Anita. Life is hard sometimes. I’m glad that you’re free of it now and in a gentler place with your sweet Bogart. 🤍 🫂

    I guess, I feel like most children are generally attached to their parents no matter the circumstances. It is just a strong bond in general. But healthy parents encourage their children to build their own lives and obviously try their best to help their kids.

    I think it’s a problem blaming kids. Even the light stuff they don’t really understand. How could they? Being a parent is stressful. Everyone is tired and sick way too often. There is way too much to do and not enough time to do it. Children take forever to do everything, just want to have fun and have everything on their terms. The two lifestyles don’t really mix.

    Adults say hurtful things to each other sometimes and can work through it. But a child takes it on board. So it’s really important to be careful because children can feel hurt. And as a parent you never really know what is going to hurt them. I guess except for the obvious stuff which society now warns people about.

    Thank you I’m really trying my best! 🤍

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